I think I’m gonna end this. I need something more…concrete. LIke, “set my intentions every day” or whatever 2 months ago

I am still making stupid mistakes at work. Other people are too, but I hate my mistakes more! ANYway,
I don’t know how I feel about creating my own reality. I feel like I just went through HELL this past 6 months and things are finally calming down and I’m starting to feel alive and vaguely lucky and in control again, but I don’t feel so much like I created this reality as that I waded through that last shitty reality to finally arrive at this reality. Don’t know. I DO want to focus on good things – I feel that that DOES make a difference. I need to remember this. 3 months ago

Getting nervous about my midnight shift tonight. I don’t want to create trouble and mistakes. I want to create ease and competence. I remember what it was like when I started here at Wash U and I kept making mistakes and how I was always praying for confidence and competence. It worked. I eventually became so comfortable here that I almost LOVE to come to work. Sometimes, like yesterday, I wasn’t even ready to go home. So, I will focus on making my second job just like this one. Full of ease and joy and friendship and competence and confidence and work that’s well done. 7 months ago

I’ve created a spiral of dispair heading for disaster. Fortunately, I’m not quite at disaster YET. Time to look up, up uP UP and spiral back upwards, out of the drain, into the sink, up onto the counter, shake my little buggy antennae at the sky and shout “THIS IS GREAT! LOOK AT HOW AWESOME MY LIFE HAS BECOME!!!!! 7 months ago

Tapping to keep from collapsing. That damn man of mine. The dog’s tumor is bursting and bright red and weepy and the Mjolner can’t sleep and Chaz says it’s not that bad and he won’t take him to the vet till he gets paid again.
I’m so done with the both of them! He has GOT to move out. I guess I could focus on creating Chaz as somebody responsible, but I feel like that’s impossible. I feel like I have a better chance of winning the lotto or PCH than of him paying his way through life.
On the bright side, I did put in a one week’s notice at River City Casino. On the dark side, I’m gonna miss the money.

Oh well… 10 months ago

So how do I create this to be better? Let’s see…
tonight will be slow with big tippers. There will be extra cooks in the kitchen and all of my food will come out promptly and perfectly.
I’ll make $100 off of 6 small tables.
I will have plenty of energy this weekend and actually have fun doing everything! 10 months ago

everytime I get in my car, I get ANGRY and I fight with my guy (who’s not even there!) and I tell him all the things I can and will probably never say. It’s pretty ugly.
So, when I drive, I create horror and disharmony. I keep working on it though…trying to change my mood to one of determination or hope instead of anger and bitterness. 11 months ago

Today I tapped on not using my guy as a stumbling block, but rather as a step up!

I also visualized myself making 100,000 a year.
My 3 month goals are to
a)research finance/passive income opportunities and to choose one!
b)read 6 books on finances/money/money-brain connection.
c)lose 20 lbs…becaue I think that weight loss, for me, preceeds other greatnesses!
e) tap focus tap focus and weed out the barriers and strengthen the acceptance of wealth. 12 months ago

“How does it get any better than this and How did I get to be so lucky???!!”

and what I was thinking earlier today…
“I created all this greatness and I’m still creating even better and greater!” 14 months ago

I don’t know how it will get paid off, but that’s what I’m creating. My beautiful lovely Delor house, COMPLETELY paid off by next March. “In an easy and relaxed manner, in a healthy and positive way, in it’s own perfect timing for the highest good of all, I intend my house to completely paid off” 14 months ago

skinny healthy
Rich and Wealthy
Artsy Fartsy Energy

skinny healthy
Rich and Wealthy
Artsy Fartsy Energy
I am just who I want to be

I didn’t want to go to dance class last night but I did and I did a really amazing (as far as I’M concerned) head stand. I was pretty steady compared to the other skinny minny strong girls! 14 months ago

I am a money magnet!
I am attracting millions of dollars.
I am the creator and the creation!
I create myself to be lean, strong, agile and beautiful.
I have BOUNDLESS energy!
I eagerly and joyously create Art, Wealth, Health, Love and Happiness. 14 months ago

So, I lost two cashiers checks totalling $6,000. Signed, with my ID, and everything.
Freaked me the hell out.
I couldn’t sleep very well. I tried to calm myself down and go with the flow, knowing that worry doesn’t help.
This morning was particularly rough.
However, on the way to work, I kept focusing on Melissa Zollo’s wealth/imagination CD, and kept saying “I attract millions. No matter what happens with this money, I attract MILLIONS of dollars. This money may just show up somewhere. It probably will because I am a money magnet” and lo and behold, the bank calls and tells me that two construction guys hand in my checks and ID. All is well.
Also, UMB bank tried like HELL to help me out – which they didn’t have to do. The universe held me in it’s hands. I became the creator that I want to be and we jammed our asses off together.
I rock. the universe rocks. Life rocks. My boyfriend rocks! My friends rock. Everything is perfect!

Except, now? work is kicking my ass. I was trained by a fucking moron and these people don’t get it and I’m near to being judged for it. Oh well. I need to go home or something. I’m exhausted! 14 months ago

I’m in love with my life. After writing and reciting the incantation
“The universe joyously invites me to dwell in financial ecstacy. I bask in the company of my loving and hysterical friends and family.” for several days, I got invaded by my friends last night who FORCED me to go out and have fun. And I was feeling SO guilty about not seeing them. WOW. So, this morning, I kept repeating to myself (in spite of my annoying hang-over) “Strength. Energy. Agility. Bravery. Joy.” over, and over, and my pole class went GREAT! I did a sugar glider, a supported swan, an ankle hang into an arm/head stand (MY FIRST) and some nice spins. I am a champion. I just keep forgetting to tell myself enough. I also found a chair at goodwill for a BUCK! YAY! 14 months ago

So for the last few days, I’ve been re-listening to my Melissa Zollo Imagination/Money cd. I figure, my monetary life is looking slightly shoddy (what with my Boyfriend and the sewer and all) and so I started trying to imagine wealth and money and millions of dollars.
Then, I wrote down this incantation:“THe universe joyously supports me as I dwell in financial ecstasy, physical perfection, and creativity and bask in the loving company of friends and family. I am a magnet to receiving millions and MILLIONS of dollars.”

THen, I find last night that my sewer line WON’T take $10,000 to repair. It’s repaired for $200.
AND, my mom gave me two lamps.
AND, this morning, two of my magazine subscriptions came through the mail.
AND, Stephanie called me and said she had a check waiting for me.
AND the guy with the extremely awesome couch FINALLY called me back and is selling it to me for $10 less than his asking price.
? Things are coming along swimingly.
It’s a reminder to me to keep my mindset on high and mighty things and don’t get bogged down by reality. Reality is only as real as I let it be. AND, let me tell you, I actually VISUALIZED that sewer line being cleared accidentally OR easily cleaned. I wasn’t sure enough in my powers to just think of the BEST thing. I had to add in the SECOND best thing, and that’s what I believed most, and that’s what I got. Well. YAY! Good for ME!
I MUST REMEMBER TO NOT GET SLOPPY ABOUT DIRECTING MY LIFE! 14 months ago

a problem sewer line
a mean grumpy boyfriend who resents me and won’t help me pay for anything for the house.

A great boss. a great job. extra money for extra pole lessons.
a computer that’s still working.
means to make my life better and better.
Time to focus on my brain power!
The will to improve my life!
a great dentist and great dentist checkup. 14 months ago

A citation from Berkeley city hall,
a broken car,
a broken tooth,
a cold
a perpetual headache,
the inability to invert,
....jesus. What am I doing?

What ELSE did I create this week?
a pole to practice on
a great vegan potluck
a sweet boyfriend
a free “meal” with some friends at the SC diner
a good decision from my bosses at work
a vet to euthanize Mary
A dentist for future teeth work
a great visit with my parents
a day at home to fix up the house.
coffee? Yeah. Maybe coffee! 15 months ago

I want today to be loving and peacefull between me and my man. I want to get some stuff done but it doesn’t have to be tooo much for me to be happy.
Maybe get the mirror apart, take the dog house to Steph’s, clean out my car, clean the music room.
THEN, tonight, we get to do my final “WALK-THROUGH” before I buy the house. I don’t NEED the final walkthrough, I figure, but any reason to go see it is great by me!
All in all, I just want today to be a pleasant and mildly pro-active day! 16 months ago

I have been trying often to raise my vibration to a sweet, positive state, thinking that this is probably the best way to create the BEST reality every minute, whatever that reality is.

I’m choosing to think about the good things that will happen instead of the many silly minor unpleasant things that COULD happen but won’t because I’m too damn vibrationally high! 16 months ago

I’m feelin’ happy about Delor.
I’m hopeful, and kinda eager. Even a bit excited. 17 months ago

I’m creating confidence in financial abundance. I’m feeling confident in creating a win-win-win-win situation.
I feel confident in making a good decision.
I feel confident in…making decisions for my own good. 17 months ago

why did I create THAT???? Jeeeeesh!
Maybe now I am creating a house with a great new lateral line????
.....uh….OK. 17 months ago

I think maybe the jist of what I’ve been listening to is that I’ve alread created everything. Maybe the correct phrase should be “I’m allowing my reality every minute”

Clarify what I want at any moment and then just let it go and allow. It’s already ready for me. I just need to be a cork. a happy, happy cork and bob downstream bumping into (“rendevouzing with”) money, a house, furniture, safety, security, friends, unity, health, muscle tone, success at work and everything I do. 17 months ago

Walsh is, apparently unbeknownst to my Realtor, a “short-sale”, which means exactly opposite of how it sounds. It’s NOT short at ALL, usually. HOWever, I’m creating a smooth short sale that is actually SHORT! I’ll be able to move in 4116 walsh by January 17th as planned. It’ll be great! It’s not for me to know the semantics of how this will happen. I just know that it will because I am pretty freakin’ powerful and I’m eager for this! of course, I’ll give the universe the option of giving me Delor. Why NOT? I love that house too! I almost switched houses last night, but my man said no, and I was ok with that too. I want him to be happy also. 17 months ago

we are making an offer on the house that I love.
4116 walsh.
My man started off grumpy today. I kept trying to hold my vibration up and to not be irritating to him…just to keep trying to see him being nice and happy. WE look at several crappy houses that he suggested…yikes!
Next thing you know, he suggests we eat at my favorite mexican restaurant (that he never goes to), we meet a realy NICE biker/tattoo guy who lives right NEAR 4116 walsh and he is talking about how GREAT the area is and promoting the SHIT out of the neighborhood and nightlife and he rescues pit bulls and we LOVE him.
My man is being more and more vortexy and I’m floating along like a yacht in smooth sparkling clean waters! We’re meeting the realtor tomorrow, and my man is drinking beer and talking and laughing with his on-line buddies. I’m pretty … FLOATY! 17 months ago

My guy has been really really vortexy! I LIKE this! I’m going to continue to see his vortexy self all day today and into the future! I think we’ll both enjoy this more vortexy rondevouz. If he’s vortexy, and I’M vortexy, we’ll buy a great house we both love! Who cares HOW it happens, as long as it’s all smooth, easy, natural, quick and happy! 17 months ago

Source vibration is dominant vibration. I am a cork..my natural tendency is to bob at the top! I simply must let myself float at the top. Search for fewer negative thoughts…by filling myself with More UPLIFTING thoughts. this is a buffet…choose the GOOD stuff! Don’t sweat the ham! I choose by turning my attention TO something. I don’t WANT consternation, crankyness, seperation. I WANT ease and joy, I WANT choices and excitement, I WANT my dream house and I want easy joy and confidence. Fill my plate with quickness, ease, love, warmth, smooth Appraisals, smooth finances, smooth moves, PLENTY of time, happiness and THRILL! A cork floats at the level of ease, happiness and joy! BE THE CORK. 17 months ago

My man has been nicer and I’ve been enjoying it. I’m focusing on his strength and confidence, on his common sense, his sense of adventure, his loyalty, his integrity, his drive to succeed, his kind and loving nature, his obvious and glowing love for me, his excitement about moving. His partnership with me in this awesome move! 17 months ago

Where do I want to go? ... To a warm, safe, sound, strong, beautiful, inviting, inexpensive house in the city.
How do I want to feel? powerful, centered, focused, peaceful, loved, supported, proud, confident.
What do I want for my future? Friends, fun, success at my goals, like pole dancing, ukulele, having a nice house, muscle building, flexibility, security, excitement.
What do I want to own in my future? a nice house that I love, a nice reliable, loving fun partner, 12 million dollars, a decent car.
What do I want to do in my future? party, relax, create, love, dance, learn, learn learn, be with my family and friends.
“It does not matter where you are—where you are is shifting constantly—but you must turn your attention to where you want to go. And that’s the difference between making the best of something and making the worst of something.” 17 months ago