make 2006 the greatest year of my life....

Silent Lucidity=

Silent Lucidity

Hush now, don’t you cry
Wipe away the teardrop from your eye
You’re lying safe in bed
It was all a bad dream
Spinning in your head
Your mind tricked you to feel the pain
Of someone close to you leaving the game of life
So here it is, another chance
Wide awake you face the day
Your dream is over… or has it just begun?

There’s a place I like to hide
A doorway that I run through in the night
Relax child, you were there
But only didn’t realize it and you were scared
It’s a place where you will learn
To face your fears, retrace the years
And ride the whims of your mind
Commanding in another world
Suddenly you hear and see
This magic new dimension

I- will be watching over you
I- am gonna help you see it through
I- will protect you in the night
I- am smiling next to you, in Silent Lucidity

[spoken during solo]
(Visualize your dream)
(Record it in the present tense)
(Put it into a permanent form)
(If you persist in your efforts)
(You can achieve dream control)
(Dream control)
(How’s that then, better?)
(Hug me)

If you open your mind for me
You won’t rely on open eyes to see
The walls you built within
Come tumbling down, and a new world will begin
Living twice at once you learn
You’re safe from the pain in the dream domain
A soul set free to fly
A round trip journey in your head
Master of illusion, can you realize
Your dream’s alive, you can be the guide but…

I- will be watching over you
I- am gonna help to see it through
I- will protect you in the night
I- am smiling next to you….

Words can’t even describe the highs I felt…the people…the warmth and Love I experienced were unlike anything before…I fully came out of hibrination…where I had been for decades…and didn’t even realize it…

Change is a good thing…Stagnant water breeds disease and mosquitos…a stagnant life breeds contempt and worse for oneself…

The year began beautifully and has ended the same way…Oh sure, there were ups and downs during the course of it…but that’s life…There were so many positives and discoveries…

Tonight was just the perfect end to 365 days of advancement and adventure…I hope things continue to happen in a positive way…

One can only look forward to the new dawn…

Done deal

It is definitely getting better!!

Mid April now. Hmmm. Progress on all fronts. More and more wonderful people keep coming into my life.

It has been a bang-a-roo-kick-boom-kapow! kinda year so far. And it’s only mid February. Gotta keep the ball rolling, snowball growing!

feeling of rising from my own ashes…like a Phoenix…the fire bird…being reborn…after this awesome trip…

I don’t have a year so far in my short time here that I remember as being great. While some good things have happened, none of them have defined an entire year. While I was in highschool for most of the 2000’s so far, it feels like I have pissed away half a decade.

I don’t really have anything to loose. I’m not in debt. Nobody hates me. I’m loosing weight. I’m reading books again. My grades were good. I asked a girl out. I have ‘normal’ problems again. It feels great.

I’m 12 days into 2006. The time is now.

I don’t know if 2006 is going to be the greatest year of my life, but it is going to be the best year of my life so far. I can feel it. I’m a completely different person than I was a year ago. I’m excited about what is going to happen to me.

And I love the rain.

1. I have the plane tickets
2. Already have some reservations at cool places…..
3. I’m so “effing” excited

But I think all that has to be done…..is…...1. Finalize what I have started with my divorce….or separation….(separation is what we filed).....2. Sell the house and kill the bills….each walking away with a fistfull of cash…..3. Remain civil to each other…..might be easier said than done but I’m game…..4. Get settled in a new place of my own…5. Let things proceed as they have been and let the chips fall where they may….6. Take my vacation…..That’s not that much…..and it would mean everything…to start fresh…and…...new…......