stop giving myself to people who don't deserve me.

i’ve been doing that for a while
because i thought they did.

but they don’t.

but maybe i found someone who does.
we shall see? :)

I have failed this once again. I thought I knew somebody, but in the end I was just used for their pleasure. It’s not going to happen again. I am promising myself this. I will find someone who cares for me and deserves the good person that I am.

I have a lot of work to do on this.

I realized what I was doing. I was losing control and going down a path that wasn’t good for me. I used to head down that path into the woods, but this time I stopped myself. I guess that is progress, but you still feel it in your heart and you know that you still have a few mountains to climb.

That person doesn’t deserve me. Actually what they don’t deserve is me GIVING myself to them. I have to stop giving myself to the point where the other person thinks they don’t have to give any of themselves.

I realized this recently. I haven’t fully been able to act out “not giving myself to someone who won’t deserve me” but I realize who doesn’t and who I will never give that chance. I realize about who I thought I would give that chance to and then came to the conclusion I would be doing exactly what I don’t want to once again.