fall out of love

I want to just forget about him but it’s really hard. The first time I fall in love with someone they aren’t interested in anything in anything but sleeping with me. I can’t even figure out what it is about him that I like so much. I try to move on – I won’t talk to him for like 3 wks, a month and then he’s the one that comes out of the wood works and initiates contact with me. I’m so frustrated with him because unless he’s a moron (which I KNOW he is not) he KNOWS how I feel about him and he continues to play with me. We were friends before all of this started happening; how could you do this to someone who’s supposedly your friend?

Mostly I’m angry at myself for allowing myself to be strung along like this. I feel like I have no control over my own feelings anymore. I feel like a fool.

The subject line says it all.

Today is the day that I relized that everything has been nothing but lies lies oh yeah and more lies….Everything has been a double life. He has friends I dont know, a girl who he claims is his “best friend” but he has been chasing after the entire time that we were together, like im his back up plan in case things dont work and he is never able to get her(which by the way he wont she is madly in lvoe and oh yeah engaged to someone else she has a kid with, which kind of gives me pleasure to know that he will be hurting too, how mean is that?) i even found a totally different myspace account, so he could talk to people without me ever seeing his comments or his page…which he listed himself as single surprise surprise….everything has been a lie, the people that he sees, things that he does, and to think that people in his life know, people that claim to love me and be my friend…they were all just giving me the pity look and covering his ass. i feel so betrayed and lost, like i’ve been in love with someone that wasnt even real….I dont know how to take the first step, i dont know how to heal from this, but im trying day by day and today is the beginning of the rest of my life….

Nope, it isn’t happening. Still loving you, no less than before. Distance & time are doing a lousy job…

Beacuse I spent three years trying to find a boy I love inside this yerk.Now I realise that my boy has become what he is now and I cant change it,and I cant love what he’s become,because now he doesn’t love me,and he is mean,and he drinks,and he cheats.So it’s about time i fall out of love.

It’s been 2 months already & feelings haven’t changed a bit. Every day brings something new in different areas except for this one. Nope. Not fallen out of love just yet…

I have been in love for almost 5 years.
I was not so sure about my feeling.
It happened so fast, when the first time I saw him met with an accident.
Actually, I just pitied him, but the feeling changed and become stronger.
I observed him, pay my attention to him, trying to have a chat with him.
His bright brown eyes gives me the ultimate happiness,although he was claimed by my friends that he is an average boy. But for me, he is so special.
For many years, I just could say I love him on the fogging glass,on the sand, on anything that could disappear the words immediately.
Two years ago, we were separated to other places. He went to the north, while I stayed at the east, where both of us used to live there.
And I miss him so much until I always wait for his presence whenever, my bus passed his house.
It has been torturing me since I couldn’t see him.
There were times, our friends gossiping me with him, but I was afraid if he wouldn’t accept my love.
And now,three months ago, I did call him, to listen to his soft and lovely voice. And hoping i’ll meet him someday.
But, this feeling had disturbed my life a little bit, and I really worry if my feeling towards him will interfere my relationship with my new boyfriend.
Please. I need let him go.

Not yet. This isn’t happening, no matter how much I distract myself. When I sit down on the couch at the end of the day & ask myself if I still love him, the answer is “yes”. I love him & I’m in love with him.
Well, of course I can’t expect myself to fall out of love in 2 weeks after an intense 3.5-year relationship!

I am pretty sure that i will never achieve this goal. I think I’m feeling better and then something sets me off. I feel like the best part of my life is behind me. Maybe love really is forever. I can’t imagine living the rest of my life with this sadness and pain. I’ve been divorced for 2 years and I still wear my wedding ring to remind me of what we had together.

I need my love to either leave or transform. I need my heart to be mine again. How long will it take? Or will I love him forever? I might, but I think that this love will eventually transform into some warm feeling that won’t bother me anymore. Right now it does. It keeps my heart closed & my mind skeptical. It’s ok for a while, but it needs to change in the future. I’m not quite sure if I want to fall in love again – it’s a major pain in the butt. But whatever happens, happens. I just need my heart back.