after having looked at the definition, i dont think i am a narcissist… i definitely am not an extremist.. but what i am worried about here is i have this thing that, when i am criticized of the smallest of things by anyone, you can expect one of the two responses out of me :-
One. If i believe the person is justified, then there is no response. And i just keep quiet. Dead shut. And it is always there on the back of my mind. It somehow is like stuck in there, that how that person could criticize me of absolutely anything. As if i were perfect. And this kind of behavior somehow ensures, for itself, that the same mistake, however small it may be, does not happen again. Now there are a couple of things wrong with this. I shouldn’t be taking others so seriously. And And it makes me feel that i am too self occupied. I hope not.
Second. If i believe the other person is not justified, then he had it. You get a slap back response where i have no control over myself. I dont like to mince words. And i like to call a spade, a spade. There is no place for common sense. for hierarchy. for protocol. for my own self good. This has to change. Because a response however justified has to be polite. Especially in the Indian professional culture. Else its considered rude. Performance is key but to be a master you got to have a champion attitude. Its about time. That i can have more control over myself. That situations dont get the better out of me. That i am able to maintain a calm composure for my own self good. 2 years ago