Since graduating I’ve had the distinct feeling several times that my life is just starting. Yes I have succumbed at times to the – what are you doing with your life stares, questions etc- but I’ve mostly been super stoked on life.. And i think a big part of this is because I am not directly attached to my former teammates whose company I wanted more than anything- but whose support of me was always fickle…
Can i fault them for it? No i don’t think so and I do miss them sometimes.. but their friendship- I feel used by it. It is a selfish one sided friendship and I’m just over it. Since graduating I have linked up with so many real friends I can not even begin to describe how excited I am by it all!!
I’m starting to realize that its the people that you feel like you don’t have to censor yourself aroudn that are the ones you want in your life.
my former high school training partner and I go for runs all the time and it just feels right! A long jumper and I go to church all the time.I meet up for tea with Rita.. another girl who jsut recently graduated with me- every so often.. I skype with my best friends every so often. I am feeling blessed to have these friends in my life 2 months ago