Stop being so anti-social

i’m not completely antisocial i am extremely social but the problem is its only when i want to be… and when i dont want to be then it starts to be a huge problem for my life in general….......there are lots of factors involved in it but i think the main point is that it has to stop because i can’t keep living this kind of life…......i wish someone could teach me how to change!!

Yes it’s bashfulness. New situations totally overwhelm me. So maybe I need:-

(i) to upskill myself
(ii) try some virtual socialising

For someone who’s usually so social, I went thru a period of anti-social-ness. I think it’s ok every so often. I was dealing with the stress of coming off a deployment (coming home was more stressful than the overseas time I think!), uncertainty about the job, etc. etc. I just needed to think a lot and edit the friends list, etc. I’m still not out all the time like I was before…I just think I’m kinda growin up. A little, anyways

I’ve always been kind of antisocial, but I have good friends, so I don’t actually care the fact of not been popular. But I’ve been living in London for about 3 months now, going to school everyday and all that, and I’m surprise of my classmates, really, I try to go out with them and nothing they always have “something to do” I mean we’re all foreigns, I’m kind of sick of them, I’ve tried to talk to them but they seem more antisocial than, or it may be the fact they live with people from their countries so they don’t care have a chilean friend, anyhow I’m trying my best and it’s not working :c

I have fallen deeper an deeper into antisocialness. I think I am getting out of it. I’m realizing it and how awkward it makes me feel. It’s hard, though, because when I hang out with people, especially large groups of people I – well, first, I can think of nothing intelligent to contribute, and then I go home and feel empty and shitty about it. It makes me avoid these situations and people in general. I do just fine if it’s just my close friends hanging out (which happens increasingly rarely), or with one or two people. I am starting to feel like the only social interactions I feel comfortable in are really intense or too intimate to want to do all the time. But, I think I’m starting to kind of branch out also. I recently made this friend in one of my classes. In another class I even have a little group of people I always sit with and talk to, but I don’t think these relationships will extend beyond that class. But, the one friend, we have hung out a couple of times outside of class and we talk online. I think this is a good step for me. It makes new people less scary and more worth my time. It also gives me more options when my friends are hanging out with people I don’t like. But, that’s really not the way I should be thinking. But, for now it is. I don’t know. This is a terrible issue to have..

I went to my friends roommates birthday party the other night and then last night I went to dinner with some of the people from my hall last year. These were both very social things that I would normally not even consider participating in, but for some reason I did. I cannot say that I am particularly glad I did or that they were a really great time, but I did them, and I saw that they weren’t I guess. Which might be worth something.. I’m not sure.

I am who I am

well being an addicted gameing freak that i am i have been hidden away in doors for about 1 solid year now and when freinds would vist i would continue gameing…how sad. any way i finnaly realised what was happening to me ansnapped out of the haze! to find i was 2 stone overweight and i now only had 3 real life freinds left.

now i have lost a stone through going the gym and am being more social and meeting new people go me! theres still a long way to go before i reach my goal.

been going to The sports stop in Salem a bunch. I have even been visiting some friends…

Alone.