This month I have not been feeling that background recurrent sadness. The new turns I’ve been inspired to take in my plans for travel, my physical self-care, and my poetry just feel right. I’m excited about the future and enjoying the present – and memories of the past ten years are sobering but certainly not all grim. Everything that was good in the relationship is still a gift in my life, and I have learned a lot from the toxic elements.
I wound up therapy at the end of May, after going almost every week for two years. It was a really good thing to take care of myself in that way. I’m really grateful to my thoughtful therapist, my family, many wonderful friends from church and other circles, and most of all God.
I’m done! 10 months ago
Life is good, but periodically I get in touch with the sadness over this. I just have to understand what happened, and myself, as best I can and ride out the feelings.
Beauty and laughter are healing, because my relationship with God underlies everything. 12 months ago
I’ve put a lot of energy into my new relationship and I can finally say I have healed from the effects of any relationship from my past!
No one has ever made me feel anywhere near as good as my current partner is :316 months ago
my three year of a “relationship” with E has not only destroyed my confidence, but destroyed my everything.
I’m in a new relationship and although I really like him I still feel myself putting borders up to really show him how much I like him with fear of a repetition of a previous relationship.
In my head, and I know it’s in my head, all the abuse and soul destroying comments were all my fault because I’m not any kind of “girlfriend material”
That relationship has knocked my confidence x100 and I regret ever letting anyone do that to me.
It’s ridiculous I still dwell on that hellish time spent with him.
I truly fucking loath everything he’s made me become.21 months ago