I had this dream last night and it was filled with snakes, like bundles of snakes, like Medusa’s hair. They were smaller snakes, but they had fangs. Some actually looked happy. They were young, but not baby snakes, all intertwined.
There were snakes all around and there was this bundle of snakes that ended up attaching itself to me, but they were not able to bite me, nor harm me. The big snakes nearby were too lazy to get me but they were there.
Snakes typically represent lies.
When I awoke, I asked God what lies I was believing in. I felt I was walking in God’s Truth, but God gently talked to me throughout the day.
Throughout the day, He revealed that I have many beliefs that are not consistent with who God is:
- Some are regarding my children, that without an earthly father, they are incomplete and fall prey to statistics of children who grow up without a dad.
- That I have to strive financially.
- That I’m too old and that I’m too much for any man, especially godly man, to love me, to commit to my kids and I, to want me, to marry me.
- That I need a man.
- That I don’t need a man.
- That I’ll never be slenderly fit & healthy.
- That I’ll never be financially well off again.
- That I’m not good enough.
- That I’ll never be able to live the dreams that have been in my heart almost all my life.
- That I have to be realistic.
- That God will do these certain things for me, but not others because I’m not good enough.
Logically I know these are all lies, but I’ve been living those lies.
Anyway, as I went to my life group (small group) this evening, the 2 women I was with in a prayer group, they both had so many things to praise God for and in super big ways. I know both of these women well and have seen them walk over the years and I can say that God is miraculously doing some incredible things in their lives, breaking them free from things that have held them in slavery for so long.
They both talked about striving and I’m very performance based. As I got in my car to drive home, me living the furthest away, I turned the radio onto either K-LOVE or Air1. Tenth Avenue North came on with the song called, “By Your Side”. I’ve heard this song over many times and it was just a song.
With the first stanza, it felt like God was speaking to me. God often either whispers to me, or He speaks through music. He does speak in other ways, but often these are 2 modes that I relate to really well. Before the entire first verse was over, I was in tears driving.
What are the odds the very lies I’ve been believing and living out were spelled out in that song, and that that song would come on at exactly the right time. Normally, the time I left life group, I would already be home. I was about 45 min. late leaving.
The words go like this.
Tenth Avenue North
By Your Side lyrics
Songwriters: GRADWOHL, JORG / HENRY, CHRISTOPHER / MEW, DARREN JAMES
Why are you striving these days
Why are you trying to earn grace
Why are you crying
Let me lift up your face
Just don’t turn away
Why are you looking for love
Why are you still searching as if I’m not enough
To where will you go child
Tell me where will you run
To where will you run
And I’ll be by your side
Wherever you fall
In the dead of night
Whenever you call
And please don’t fight
These hands that are holding you
My hands are holding you
Look at these hands and my side
They swallowed the grave on that night
When I drank the world’s sin
So I could carry you in
And give you life
I want to give you life
Cause I, I love you
I want you to know
That I, I love you
I’ll never let you go
Anyway, if you want to checkout their video on YT, it’s at: By Your Side13 months ago