age gracefully

That is Wendy Moira Angela Darling, and yes i do know she is a story book character. I do mean the Wendy from the film Hook as well. She is so elegant and graceful, I would hope to be like her someday. To have a warm and loving home where people would love to be. I feel like sometimes I alienate myself and close myself off from people because i am afraid of being hurt by them…does that make any sense? I guess that is a completely different topic.

i am aging since i was born so i am halfway there :D

I am thinking about my age today since it is my birthday and I want to age gracefully

Invariably this happens every year. Right around March, right around my birthday. The quest for the elixir of youth continues. It goes full throttle in February and March, loses speed around April and May, is revved up in June and July (the summer months aka wear skin-revealing clothes months) and then putters out the rest of the year when fall comes in. I am now on the search for best eye anti-wrinkle cream. I am reading all these websites that prescribe one what to do for each skin decade. Apparently the thirties will need retinol – it is “no longer optional”. Man, and I just recently discovered eye make-up base! Anyway, I get depressed right around this time. It all comes back – people, usually older women telling you back when you were oh-so-young – that once you hit thirty—the metabolism slows. You laugh it off; haha that’s not going to happen to me or I am way too young to think about that are the thoughts that run through your brain. Now, it’s oh sh—!

Thus, the search. The quest. You read blogs, buy products and return them when they make your face break out (damn you, oil of olay regenerist!), and survey people. This is the time to talk to all those older women who warned you that this day would come. But, you still think to yourself: I can fight this. I can win this battle. I can age gracefully. With the help of my sisters!

So, I’m 30 years old. If you’re 19, I probably sound OLLLLLD.. if you’re 45, you probably still regard me as a kid. If you were to look at me, you may assume without knowing my age, that I’m about 24. (This is the generaly age that I am told I look like.)

I think some good foundational habits are getting put into place. I know that it’s the little things you do each day that add up over time.

I’m vegan, I don’t consume a lot of bad oils, try to eat raw as much as I can (but I eat a lot of just normally cooked foods too).. I am trying to preserve my youthful skin (it’s very pale and rather oily which can be annoying but good for preserving it’s supple youthful look). I don’t do a lot of sun time. Not a huge fan of bright sunny days with no cloud diffusers..

Now, I’m starting to bike commute every day. This is going to help tackle any weight gain I’ve had over the last 10 years. I’ve managed to stay in a safe weight range.

I don’t drink much alchohol, don’t smoke and don’t do drugs. My biggest vice is coffee, but I try to limit myself to one mug a day.

Above all, I think I’m a kid at heart and I’m not trying to race through life, doing all the things that a 30 year old “should” do. I don’t have kids, I’m not married and I’m not 10 years into my career. But I am a geek girl who still likes to play video games and occassionally goes out to goth clubs.

It’s all in the heart, and I refuse to be old in my soul.

Hmmm… I think some of it may be happening. I mean I’m still cute, to a certain extent. It doesn’t feel important anymore to be recognized as cute and certainly not to be the cutest one in the room. Still the process is happening in a way that is disconcerting. Arthritis has set in certain joints. Hearing issues that will more than likely lead to a hearing aid soon. Menopause, sleeplessness, flexibility is still way better than most people my age, but not what it was. I guess that growing old, yet gracefully part. I still have to grow old. All of that said, I’m enjoying how comfortable I feel settling into my own.

Yeah.. this is a great “thing” to have on the list… But it got me wondering, when do you know when to take this off? Like.. at 90? “Well, I’m old but boy was the journey graceful.”... ;) Just having fun.

Will expound more later with this..

why I found it important to share this here, but I’ve apparently shrunk.

I was 5’4 1/2” and now I measure 5’3 1/4”? Odd…

Stop worrying “what if” this happens or that doesn’t happen. Acknowledge and consider possibilities, and don’t worry about them.

Take the time to love those around me and show my appreciation for them. Take the time to love life and show my appreciation for it.

Live in the now. Enjoy simple treasures. Be grateful for the gifts that surround me. Love Life. Live Love.

• “Letting sleeping dogs lie.”
• Knowing when it’s time to leave it alone and realize that when he comes to his senses it may be too late, but that will be his problem then, not mine.
• Knowing that I deserve better than to be someone else’s “just in case”.
• Knowing that being alone is better than settling for anything less than full peace, respect, love, and joy with another person.
• Being as introvert or as extrovert as I choose to be at any given moment and knowing that it’s okay.
• Knowing that tomorrow is another day.
• Knowing that God is constantly guiding me and He knows exactly what’s best.
• Appreciating all of the goodness in my life.