I am starting a 40 day fast. I am easing into it tonight by having beetroot juice for dinner, and milk tomorrow, and then water thenon.
This is very important to me. I feel this is my calling, a step in my destiny and life path to mature spiritually and figure out the meaning of my life and where it was meant to go. I want to feel the hunger, and realize it is not for food but for a greater purpose, to find my search in life. I want to hunger, not of food but for the manifestation of my dreams.
I want to thirst to see these things happen, to come true. and for me to realize there is nothing or nobody stopping me. To stop caring what others think of me and waste precious energy on abiding to their expectations of me, and flower into a human being who lives by their own code of desires.
A 40 day fast. I dont care for numbers, I dont care for figures. I want a transformation of my existence. a shedding of past habits and mistakes that i still drag in my mind, body and soul today. That make me depressed, and suicidal. I know I can rid myself of these ailments and that is through the abstinence of the very thing that grounds my days, that I have overdependence on.
I want to become one with the world that is faced with us here and now and be remembered, be one that is admired by others who have not and in many cases, never will, live without restraint or without the loud resounding “no” in the human brain that we make for ourselves. Illusions of limits, of impossibles. One that we make for ourselves only to rationalise that what we are doing at the start is adequate and there is no need for more.
I want to breathe and “be” at the highest frequency possible. I want to smile and communicate with other human beings with no worry, concept of loss, or yours or mine (selfishness). A carefree connection, with a deep underlying knowledge that because we were born with nothing, (we are lucky to even be here considering the odds of conception) and we live with no debt to any organisation, workplace or other individual and that we die with nothing BUT brilliantly coloured memories, that we shouldnt let ANYTHING. Not Money, not Time should come in between the pure enjoyment between experiences within individuals.
I want to touch the very core of this soul, to discover what this human being's attributes are, and to take a very deep and good look at the beautiful me.I will do it. It wont be hard because it will be a truly spiritual deep connection with myself and the clarity will open up into attention a different faucet of this existence.
I can tell its going to be worth it before I even start.







