use my computer as a tranquilizer.

at the time i wrote the goal i had just 1. put my beloved golden retriever down due to cancer,2. my dryer died,3 my brakes went out on my car! I needed to do something totaly mindless, rip’n cd’s on to the computer, writing letters, shopping,blogging it took me away, out of my self, my self pity and my pain. It is over now. All better .I am now moving on.brakes fixed,new dryer andcalls to breeders about pups that will be available in August.

especially my butt from sitting so long. this is def. a short term goal.

I want the computer to take up my time i don’t want to think i just want to zone out.Someone said ””you must have alot of stress”“well… if you think about it alot of crap does happen and is happening in my life, but alot of stuff happens every day to everyone. just for an hour or 2 i don’t want to think about a mr that has heart trouble or a grown son that can’t find his way.putting a dog down,having a Grandma that is in failing health,psycho sisters,weird patrons,checking acct, savings acct,housework,dirty car,clutter,piles of unread books. i’m just going to zone.