weigh 125

My BMI is healthy (24.7) but it’s on the high side (25 is overweight). After speaking with my doctor, she thought it’d be a good idea to lose some weight. If I get my weight to 120-125, my BMI would be right in the middle of the healthy BMI zone.

Overall, I’m a pretty active person. I ride my bike to work four days a week, go to at least two classes at the gym every week, and run a few times a week. The reason I struggle with weight is FOOD.

I LOVE food. I love cooking, baking, and experimenting with food. I love pastries, breads, cookies, etc. I’m a Food Network junkie.

However, it’s not loving food that’s the issue: it’s how I handle it. I can be an emotional eater (for good and bad times), and I haven’t learned portion control when it comes to desserts. While my meals are relatively healthy, I eat too much during the evening. I think this is partially emotional eating (I need to figure out what the issue is) and partially not feeding my active body enough during the day. Many nights after work, I will get home, eat dinner, and then eat enough food for another dinner (or two)!

I’m ready to identify my issues and work toward my goal. Here I go!

When my life gets unmanageable, one of the first places my mind goes is to losing weight and how my life wouldn’t be nearly so awful if I still was actively involved in my ED. Part of me is thankful I’m not, the other part is angry at myself for having a body that isn’t fragile or like a little girl’s anymore.

I think this may be my eating disorder talking, not my healthy mind. I need to put the focus off of weight and the focus on being healthy and taking care of myself.

sooooo cloooooooseeeee!!!

I want to loose 10 pounds. I’m going to cut 600 from my diet and walk (fast) for 2 hours each day…. I hope it works.

This week, I’m going to loose 3 pounds.

since my last entry, june of 2006 – 15 months ago – i shot back up to about 134 in january of this year (to my own defense however, that was right after vacation).

in february of this year, my fantastic boyfriend talked me into running a 10k. i’ve never really run that much before, but thought i’d give it a shot. since then, i’ve been running kind of regularly – about 10 miles a week. i hadn’t thought much about dropping a pound here and there because during the week i eat like an angel, and on the weekends, i just eat whatever :) so i’d usually drop a pound during the week, and gain it back on the weekends. well, since i started running, i’d drop a pound during the week and amazingly somehow kept it off. it was very slow going – i lost about a pound a month. and this morning, i weighed in at 125.2!!!!! I never thought it would happen. NEVER. what a life altering event when you achieve things you thought were impossible!

for the first time in many, many, many years, i got on the scale this morning and weighed less than 130! even better, i was down to 127.8. i could not believe my eyes! :D i went on travel this week to newport, RI and i guess i was even better at staying on track with weight watchers than i thought. the key to this program is even when you cheat, write it down, because you won’t cheat as badly. i weight in officially saturday morning, then go to a baby shower saturday night. i hope i can restrain myself from all the cookies i’m baking for it!

i am SO sick of struggling with this. i feel my whole life i have struggled with my weight, though i assume most women have unless they are lucky enough to be blessed with a naturally high metabolism (in which case i hate you). i am doing weight watchers again for the second time. goal weight: 129. current weight: 132. real goal (as in said goal): 125. height: 5’ 6”.