I must skip today, because when I woke up this morning, I rolled over and apologized to Mr. M for something. I don’t even remember what it was. Ah! 15 months ago

I got pretty far today. Didn’t apologize to my dogs, or any inanimate objects. Then I went to the grocery store. ALMOST apologized to the bagger for asking him not to double bag, but didn’t!

Then, I was putting my money away, and someone was standing at the counter. My cart was kind of close to her (not blocking her from anything), so I moved it, and while doing so, muttered, “Oh, sorry.”

Wah wah wah.

Tomorrow begins a new Day 1. 15 months ago

I don’t THINK I have apologized for anything today. This shouldn’t be too hard… I will be alone all day.

Baby steps, don’t apologize to dogs or telemarketers. 15 months ago

I have had this goal up or a long time now, and have yet to succeed.

Today, I apologized for eating a grapefruit. 15 months ago

I have yet to go a day without apologizing. However, I have been more sparing with my apologies.

I have started thinking about the type of things I apologize about (things that aren’t my fault, aren’t bad things, nobody else had noticed…)

I have started noticing that when I don’t apologize for everything, nothing bad happens, and I feel better.

The apologies I have given were short and sweet. (“Oops, sorry!” instead of “Oh, I am sooo sorry. It was wrong of me to step on your foot. I am so clumsy, and a bad person, and deserving of your scorn…”)

So, I’m still working on it, but I’m getting better. 22 months ago

I apologized to dogs, because I stepped in front of them.

“Oh, I’m sorry, dogs,” I said, and patiently waited for them to walk by.

Because, dogs think you’re rude if you don’t say “excuse me”. 22 months ago

Tonight, my husband got home from work, and was going to eat some peanut butter with celery, but there was barely any peanut butter left. What did I do? I apologized. Profusely. As if I had eaten all the peanut butter.

Tomorrow is another day… 22 months ago