stop being so materialistic

I love clothes & material things. I don’t want to stop loving them. Just stop being so obsessed & needy.

This is hard for me… I don’t mean to sound whiny or contrite but it is. I grew up with a mother that bought LOTS of stuff to overcompensate for what? I don’t know. Now I do the same thing and have the same bad habits. I find myself drawn to malls without a second thought. I spend on ridiculous trinkets and trash I don’t need or want. This goal feeds into my goal to get rid of the debt. I need to put away the cards and cash and go outside – train for Mt.Kili climb and get away from it all.

My joys should be the love of a great husband, family, friends. Doing something good for myself and mankind. NOT what can be found in a shop.

I forget that it’s all meaningless anyway

Somedays I feel that if I don’t have the right bag, shoes, what have you… I’m not complete. I hate being so materialistic, but I don’t do a damn thing to stop this behavior.