gain some weight

Iv being trying really hard with this one. iv been skinny all my life. Iv joined to gym to do weight training but haven’t been going for a while due to work commitments. Iv given up on those weight shakes all they do is make you go to the loo. So im starting to eat breakfast Now, whcih i didn’t before!!! hopefully i should an improvement soon. This just as hard as it for those who want to lose weight but their the ones who get the most advice from every media magazine etc…. Theres very little help for use skinny people

47.1

:) happy days, slowly but surely I will get back to where I was and beyond. I’m having breakfast, and having little treats.

Also I am starting to develop a habit of getting into a routine so I don’t skip meals.
I’m calmer and feel I have a little more energy. Hopefully I would like to reach the 50s by christmass, if I can do it before it’d be wonderful.

-a little note here, I am no longer entertaining the thought of the relationship I had with J… I have learnt I need to let go of this one. I can’t start a destructive pattern as I’m trying to put things right, top priority my health.

The real test starts tomorrow with work again. Got to manage that diary tooth and nail!!!!

Feeeeelin good!!!

Xxxxx

It came to my like lightning strikes the ground.

For all its worth I want to thank god for this website. For it was this very website that has just changed my perspective as I read someone elses blog.

HOW FUCKING LUCKY AM I, I CAN EAT ANYTHING I LIKE I AM SO PRIVILEDGED.

My perspective has changed I’m used to think this as a battke I was losing when in fact this is a wonderful journey of self discovery and indulgence in delicious foods.

Also I’m going to take onboard the advice given and look up my calorie intake as I am sure that having such a nmetabolic rate means I should be eating more high energy foods to keep me going.

THANK YOU PEOPLE. DONT EVER FORGET ANYTHING IS POSSIBLE

Ok so it goes on…

45.9 aka rock bottom. BUT I feel a little bit more enlightened.

I understand why this has happened, I have more compassion towards myself than I have ever had. My weight loss has been a consequence of the things I have gone through in the last year.

a) the domestic violence incident -which didn’t happen to me bt happened to a close family member and depressed me

b) the deterioration of my relationship

c) my break up

d) the fact that I was witness to my expartner moving on and coming home with hickies on his neck and this really hurt

e) my promotion, which although its a tremendous possitive thing, did give me stress because in my poor state of mind I have been lacking the confidence to perform to the expectations of a £50,000 job at 24 years of age.

I made a promise that by keeping myslef anonymous on the site there is no reason to tell any lies, this is my journey.

So now I’m feeling better and I am going to start again.

I am finally out of the house I shared with my ex its been a month and I feel already better.

Hope my next entry is a little heavier!

Xx

like i way to little i weight 148 and i should way more but i keep losing it

Still can’t get over 100lbs ;-;

and i’m trying sooo hard! >.>

I’m weighting 49 kg! Mustn’t loose the weight again…

i want to do this more than any thing i dont like being skinny i dont have a eating disorder just cant put weight on

im to boney…im 27 and i look like im 17. i needs some womanly curves.

I am so ashamed of myself, not having logged on this thing for ages.

While some aspects of my life have dramatically changed this one aspect, my weight which is paramount to my well beign and my self esteem has plummeted to 46.9 kilos. 1.4 kilo lighter than my last entry.

I am very sad right now and I want to cry, but instead of doing this, I am going to prepare myself a sandwich and drink that HORRIBLE whey stuff that body builders drink.

A lot has changed, I think this may be linked to the change in me, first I am no longer in a relationship. I have a lot of work related stress my career which has taken off amazingly well, has actually but a big strain on me rather than nurturing me.

:(

I am going to try so much harder now I swear it.