but I’m almost with some movie lists. I have been spending less time here and at FB. I’ve completed 700 things. About 19 more months for the last 50 things I want to complete. I’m going to get out more music when it warms up. Hopefully the beginning of March. I’m much better about flossing. Still having trouble sleeping. I haven’t bought any books or movie in at least a year maybe longer. I’m going to star taking out music again next month probably. I would lose track of when some stuff so an extra trip would have to be made to return it. With all the clothes Eric gave me I really don’t have to buy much but I probably will buy sneakers. In a few months I’ll start taking out library books and maybe I’ll finish at least 1 book list. 4 months ago
maybe I’ll never be that outgoing. I really i could win some money. It doesn’t even have to be the jackpot. At least to have some hope since it (the fucking bastard) won’t pay me back. I’m not jealous of him at all. It is a piece of garbage and it’s not just my opinion . The bastard would throw his own mother the bus. It would be just nice to know that being evil doesn’t always get you everything. I guess I’m brushing lots better since my dentist didn’t give me a new toothbrush like he does all the time since he doesn’t think mine is that good. Maybe life will never change. Certain people will be where they shouldn’t be. things will never go the way i expect them to. 6 months ago
i definitely completed the cheers. I’ve been reading much more and am going to take more books from the list this month. I’m taking more Cds also. I should finish the movie by the end of this goal. Hopefully I’ll handle people from the past if i see them again. I have lost weight and hopefully will take off the rest i want to before its gets too cold to walk. I’m still not complete sure about religion but i feel better about it than last year. I guess as i study the bible I’ll figure out. I have been flossing everyday and am making progress on cleaning my room. It’s not better than every room but it better than most . 9 months ago
I definitely finished 80. I’ve been only having 1 drink when i do have a drink . I might get 2 or 3 but definitely not more. I’m still a pessimist but I’m trying to focus on positive things. I need to get more motivated to find a job or something. I really don’t want to do certain jobs. Maybe I’m being too picky. I should play more $1 scratch tickets and find other free lotteries online. I read at least 1 from 56 and will put a hold on another 1 before summer ends. I think have given over 90 cheers in a week . Maybe this will be the month for over 350. Right now since the mystery didn’t work out I don’t really have enough for a monthly bus pass but if i win enough i will buy 1 for at least 1 month. I still have to work on my sleep schedule. It doesn’t seem necessary to floss everyday . I usually do 3 times a week. Brushing really should be enough. Still working on the socializing. I have to figure out what i wanna do , where I’m willing to go. 12 months ago
I’ve taken out over a dozen book from the Hard Case Crime and am going to take another 2 next month. I started playing the lottery not much and not every week< you oinly seem to win money online if you match all the numbers but at least its free. I have been doing more things on my own but there are still some i probably never will. Its more fun to do certain things with people. I have taken out over 30 cds from the list. I realize that just because someone else is happy doesn’t mean i won’t be or vice versa. I think my aunt heard some of what i was sayong or my mother cuz she actually helped with my aunt yesterday which is good cuz i really didn’t want to go over yesterday. I’m not going to go out of my way to avoid Jim but I really don’t want to do the phony I care whats going on in your life and am so interested in this and that about you. I have been using all my cheers most days. I think i have given out over a 100 in a week. Still not quite 20 a day but hopefully will get there. I think i am doing better standing up for myself. Jeff and me got into a slight argument and i didn’t back down . Granted I was wrong and i realize that but at least i didn’t back down. I guess i’m still having trouble figure out when to stand up and who to stand up to. 13 months ago
going to really work making more friends in a few weeks when it stays warm for more than 1 or 2 days in a row. I have been better about flossing though i still don’t do it every day. Jeff bought me a drink yesterday. I think i can stick to 1 or 2 drinks. I have been reading much more the past few weeks though some days not as much as I would like to. I’m definitely going to go to more places on my own when spring starts. Who cares if I’m there by myself? No one will know besides I don’t care what everyone else thinks. There’s no reason to and never will be. 15 months ago
I have been using up all my cheers everyday for the past week or so. For # 2 I’m going to start with 12 Angry Men and The Adventures of Robin Hood. I have given over 20 cheers several days lately though not yet a week. For 52. I don’t think I’ll say hi. I’m not hurt anymore but right now i don’t feel like talking to him. I guess i thought too much of who i thought he was without really knowing who he actually was. For # 42 I’m going to start with Be and Back to Black. A few more I want to add:
78. not let someone’s else happiness get me down
79. look more into working at home or for myself
80. get at least 85 cheers on a goal 17 months ago
66. not buy any more books I’m going to only 1 or 2 times
67. make more friends
68.tell the people in my life how much they mean to me (i know this sounds easy but it isn’t)
69. drink in moderation when i start drinking again
70. take more risks
71. not buy any more movies that i only watch a few times
72. find a way to earn money even if it’s not a job
73. take at least 1 day a month off from here
74. remember the good things about family members that have died
75. give at least 7000 cheers
76. try and be less negative
77. be the best Mark i can be
For now that's enough. I did repeat a few but not that many. I still have less 2 weeks complete each 1. I have until 8/16/ 2014. 18 months ago
55. try harder not to focus on the past
56. read 5 books from the top 100 modern library
57. no more sweet after Thanksgiving(that’s when my diet will start)
58. give 16 cheers every day for a week
59. give over 450 cheers in a month
60. complete at least 750 things
61. try and go more places even if no one is available to go with me
62. not limit myself so much(just because i couldn’t it back then doesn’t mean i won’t be able to now)
63. stick to the next job as long as i can unless i completey hate it
64. save enough money to go back to school
65. do something totally unexpected for me 18 months ago
43. consider moving some place smaller just to get out
44. by spring defintely buy a monthly bus pass
45. try and be more honest with myself
46. make my own bucket list
47. look into going on some game shows (not reality, i don’t want to look like an ass in front of America)
48. accept that i don’t have a best friend and might not ever
49. look more into an online college
50. not even think about formwr peope because i really don’t care about them anymore
51. look more into religion
52. figure out exactly how i’ll react next time I see Jimmy
53. figure out what i want to do with the rest of my life
54. try and fix my credit 18 months ago
because i don’t repeat let’s see
38. read every book by Clive Barker
39. read every book by John Grisham
40. try to have a better relation with family
41. not get so hung on any 1 friend
42. listen to at least 70 CD’s from the list before you die 19 months ago
26. try to read an hour a day
27. either get my license or take the bus more
28. never ever let BABY BASTARD back in my life
29. try and hang out with someone else from school
30. donate some old movies or try and sell them
31. never put myself out again for someone who won’t for me
32. be an optimist instead of a pessimist
33. go on a diet and stick to it
34. not loan anyone money again (probably including family)
35. decide what books i don’t want to read again
36. complete a book list online
37. consider joining something that would “force” me to socialize 19 months ago
13. read at least 4 books a month
14. throw out old stuff faster
15. accept that some people will never change
16. move forward, not backwards(challenge myself more)
17. not buy any movies for at least a year
18. watch 100 of the movies from the list before you die
19. try to make at least 1 new friend a year
20. limit myself to 4 hours or less of tv a day
21. no more than 25 hours of internet a week
22. save money each week
23. figure out where to move to when i’m ready
24. be more aggressive about finding a new job
25. never put up with anyone’s shit (including family )ever again 19 months ago
1. use up all my cheers everyday
2. read at least 10 books from the list before you die
3. go more places on my own
4. make a better plan for moving out
5. spend less time at FB
6. take my pills daily
7. take at least 1 day off from tv a month
8. try and floss every day
9. not buy any books until i have read what i own
10 . eat out 1 a week or less
11 . go to bed earlier
12 . be more honest with myself 19 months ago
