i titled this post “self-acceptance” because this has been the primary root of my problems. i used to have too many insecurities because of my growing up in an unconventional family setting and it has affected the way i handle myself in social situations. im never really the type to be jealous about someone having new stuff, but as i grew up and adults kept on telling me that i’m so poor for not having this and that, i thought that it was the right mindset. then i realized that i am following a deceitful thinking, it doesn’t matter if i don’t have any new stuff, nor if i am not as pretty as the next-door-sweetheart. i am special as i am. i have a family that supports my decisions, friends that turns me to the right direction (decisions), i am liked by many too. when i started accepting that someone will always come along that’s prettier and smarter than me, i’ve come to accept my shortcomings in life and how i can make it to my advantage or as a motivator. when i started accepting life as it is; i started living a peaceful life. material things doesn’t make a person happy but the love of it. my value does not depend on these material things that i see from people. but when i started working summer jobs, i started to find myself accumulating all those that i really liked to get for myself but not in a pressured way. sometimes, when i get a bonus for a job well done, i get to reward myself with the stuff that i really want and before you know it, or subconsciously unaware (if the right term) i am accomplishing my little dreams. i realized that accomplishing my goals is just one of the many things that brings happiness and contentment into my life :) i love myself more today than i did yesterday. 10 months ago

I need to reflect on how it sits with my other goals, but I recognise it as central to a lot of Buddist-oriented thinking that I have been attracted to in recent years. 14 months ago

I often find myself jealous of others; this could be over someone getting a new car, getting a new job, moving to a new city…etc. I think the jealousy comes from the fact that I want these very same things. In reality, my current car is perfectly fine (in fact, I love my car!), I just got a new job (it’ll be a year in Feb) and I own a house so moving is out of the question at the moment (however I do still want to move). I’ve had a pretty decent life so far and I need to remember that and be thankful for it. 18 months ago

Read The Secret and The Power of Positive Thinking. I believe that THEY have a lot of useful and good things to say. I want to be more like that not because I’m selfish, because I know it is true and I’ve lived in misery for a long time for no reason! I used to think that dreams were something that were so far out of reach and unattainable, now I know that it isn’t true. My dreams are HAPPENING! 21 months ago