I feel like I don’t know what’s going on. I need to get to a good place where I am alright with everything (myself, people, experiences, the whole 9). To some extent, I feel I have lost it. Looking to someone else to give me what I need. All that I need is in myself. I have to know and believe that. I feel unstable and lost. I know that I don’t need anyone to make me feel complete, but yet I can’t help but to feel that way. Maybe I’m lonesome, lonely, alone. Need to come up with something to occupy my time and space. Come up with this big project. The holidays, make me sad! Known that for a while. Don’t know where my mind is, but I know that I am not happy. Something else, happiness is all around, but I don’t know where to find it! 18 months ago