I’m not in the position to be daring or taking any risk…what is left for me is to hide, to shun, living like a rat!! fuuc it! u know?! paranoid keeping my eyes around n tipping my toes. i hate this. but this world is full of junks more than the diamond. all those elegant people live with it, hiring guards outside their house. n me? this is it. now that cockcroach still there, already 2 hrs, aparently he is following me. i wanna pray for my safety, protection from this wickedness, but it’s so distracting. i cant read in a word of Bible.
now seem like a waiting game…. he seem waiting n observing how long i gonna be here n I’m stuck here. the whole feeling now is so stinky!so ugly! 7 months ago

A wise man gets more use from his enemies than a fool from his friends.
—Baltasar Gracian 8 months ago

This Life is really sucks! I wish I’ll get some disagreement about this pessimistism. OPtimistism is young and bit surreal, dreamy, kinda mind-marijuana.
there were times that i had fear that i live in a life of mistakes!
it’s been a mess, a chao, a stumbling….
I need peace of mind, to be in harmony with myself and external world, after so many emotions…
i need to get `connected’ ( SELF).
I wanna repent what should repent.Grow, improve,move on, prosper,inner peace. I goota to be enlightened, experience a flash of Nirvana. I have to improve a bit.
I need to get it right, otherwise I won’t escape from the `cycle’.
I need to make preparation for the `migration’. 8 months ago

It’s about inner strength.
A Quiet Confidence. 8 months ago