stop abusing my body

I am on day 5 of a master cleanse, this is totally on the way to being kinder to my temple.

Stop eating at least 3 hours before I go to sleep so that my body is not still working while I am asleep

No more coffee! I think I have this one in the bag.

No more smoking! I Have a few weeks in without smoking.

Wake up earlier

GO BACK TO YOGA

Stretch several times a day

Eat a balanced diet—even possibly go back to being a vegan (I was for most of 2008 and I felt great).

Take personal time when I need it!

great things all day! I even ate breakfast right when I woke up which is something I have a hard time doing. I was awake by 9:30 this morning, woke up, had a shower, did some job hunting and went to the gym for 1.5 hours. The gym session was slow and relaxed today. I thought about getting some junk food on the way home, but went to the health food store instead and got some incense, almond milk, and a ginger beer instead. It made me feel good, much better than buying fast food crap. I also feel that if I am going to go to the gym I should reward my body at the end with something nutritious that is going to make me feel even better.

I think that I am finally ready to say goodbye to long sleepless nights, shitty diet patterns, smoking and all that. I haven’t smoked in over a week and even the absence of that has made a big difference. It has also been a really cruddy past few weeks and I am so happy that I was able to stop smoking in the midst of it all. I know that things like insomnia are related to things that we are unhappy about in our lives. I don’t want to live that way anymore.

It is hard for me sometimes to keep my positive outlets that make me feel good. It is hard to be happy sometimes but my body does not deserve the beatings I serve it sometimes. Smoking. Eating crap. Depriving it of sleep. Etc, etc.

I know that this is something that I may always struggle. It seems that the further I climb the farther I have to fall. It really scares me sometimes to have gone so high in my life—especially when I look down. I think that sometimes I need a little step back to keep going in a positive direction. It reminds me that I am HUMAN.

The first thing that I am eliminating from my life is smoking. I have been smoke free for 2.5 weeks and I feel like this is a good start to being better to my body. I feel that many of my goals are related to taking better care of myself and letting go. I only get one body and I feel that I need to learn to be better to it.

I also get lots of bruises and scrapes because I work in a high paced kitchen. I would like to be more cautious.

I would like to begin exercising regularly.

It’s like I’m constantly nicked up or bruised thanks to running around and diving under desks.