be forgiven

It’s funny – after only days of posting my last entry, I was forgiven, at least by the most important person anyway. But at what moral and personal cost? I can rest easy now, knowing that I have been forgiven for the hurt I caused, by the accusations about my character were unjust and have not been taken back. Although I sleep easy, I feel that’s because part of me is dead. I hope it can be rejuvenated.

I made a terrible mistake. We spent every day together for so long. We have jokes that no one but us will ever understand. I love you more than anyone I’ve ever known. Except for obvious reasons I could have married you, and you knew that. Even if you do forgive me, I know that our friendship is changed forever. We will never be as good of friends again, but I will always love you. The worst part is I have to go through the next three years seeing you all of the time. I didn’t want our first year of college to end like this.

I am truly very sorry.

I know peace is not easy… and maybe forgiveness too. You appear to me in my dreams.

I hope I won’t be scarred forever. I wish I could pay back with goodness. I hope I will be forgiven.

I am very sorry, again and again…

God.

Sorry for being tactless sometimes. I need to be more aware and think more clearly. I am not perfect, I should know and I do not know the circumstances so I shouldn’t judge.

ive only just realised that i done some really bad things in my life, and its funny thinking about it at the moment like ive always been someone who thinks why me when something bad happens to me personally and where i get upset.
but thinking about it i deserve it and i find it hard to accept that really im a bad person who really just wants to be good and i dont know why those bad things ive done in my life happened
so i guess with this site its just something to help get a few things off the chest
so please forgive me even though i dont know who i should ask for forgiveness from anyway
but we learn from are mistakes
i will get bad things done to me
and i will unintenially do bad things to other people
thats the gloryious life woo
party on

i hurt 2 people in my life, Nick and Ben i’m sorry,
x

It would pretty much mean the world to me to be forgiven by you and your family. You know who you are ;)

I can’t help but feel the tears rolling down my eyes. No matter how I happy am (or will be) I still have this sadness etched upon my being.

i’ve screwed up big time, & i just want forgiveness.

To my wife for all the suffering I have put on you and my reaction when you told me you were pregnant 12 years ago.

To my sister in law (RIP)my wife couldn’t be there as much as you wanted while you were dying, because of our financial problems, all you wanted was to see your big sister as much as possible because she made you feel better. Please, please forgive me.

To my wife again, I know, deep in your heart, you may never forgive me,losing your sister has really really hurt you, because of me you couldn’t see her as much as you wanted, especially at the end. Beleive me I carry that guilt every day.

To my kids for not being able to buy clothes or toys because of my choices this last year.To my family who has stood by me when I can’t even provide for you.

To my mum for not being a better son when you were alive, life was soo much better when you were here.I really miss you and I wish you could meet my daughter mum she is beautiful.