I am so very happy to be able to mark this goal off as “i’m done” :)
I remember a time when i was so emotionally unstable, i was anxious and worried about everything all the time. It felt like all i did was worry. I was so stressed, even over the most ridiculous things. The past year i have learnt so much about myself and life in general. I have grown and matured so much and it has all led me to a place of much greater emotional stability. Thank god, i feel like a different person to the day i sat and created this “goal” here on 43t :) 4 months ago
The worrying and anxiety is no longer part of my life, what a shame the stess still is :(
I so need to learn to relax! 10 months ago
A few weeks ago I posted that I was feeling a lot less worried and anxious, I’m glad to say this is still true. I said that I was still feeling stressed though, this also is still true…actully the level of stress i’m feeling is even worse.
Quite frankly, I’m doing too much to try to please other people. At the moment my life seems to be consisting purely of doing things for other people, spending time with other people etc etc. Im making absolutely no time for myself at the moment, thus my lack of activity here on 43t recently. I started out this year with one of my goals on here as “make 2012 my best year yet” with an entry listing some of the things i want to do this year another goal I started the year with was “make 2012 a year of spiritual growth”...I’m doing neither of these goals…all im doing is living my life for others…it has to stop otherwise im just going to keep getting more and more stressed and this is going to be my worst and least spiritual year yet! 15 months ago
I’m so happy to say that I have been much less worried and anxious recently, I have also realised what has been causing me to feel so worried for the past 2 years or so. I dont really want to go into much detail as i feel it’s too personal but i feel relieved to have discovered the root of what was becoming obsessive compulsive anxiety complete with a few panic attacks. That’s over now, thank god. Although i do need to be careful that i dont allow myself to fall into such behaviour again in the future.
As for the “stress less” part of this goal, i am not doing so well. Currently, due to a few problems my sister in law, her 2 children and my mother in law are living with us. I dont want to get into moaning about my in-laws here, I like them but I don’t like LIVING with them and it is really causing me a lot of stress. Anyway, on a positive note, sister in law and her 2 children are leaving tomorrow and mother in law will be leaving within the next few months. Hopefully after that I can stop feeling so stressed and I can officially say that I “worry less, stress less and feel less anxious” :) 16 months ago
“Worrying does not empty tomorrow of its troubles, it empties today of its strength.” — Mary Engelbreit.
Love this quote, I will definitely try to keep this in mind the next time I find myself worrying.18 months ago
I really need to trust in God more… 19 months ago
I cannot believe how far i’ve let this get.
Yesterday I practically had a panic attack at the doctors when I was having an ultrasound of our baby done. I’d been referred for an ultrasound because last week after my midwife measured my tummy she said it was small for the number of weeks pregnant I am. In between the apppointment with the midwife and the doctor yesterday I’d been getting sooo worried and anxious that something was wrong with the baby and I guess it just all came out once I was having the ultrasound. My heart started beating really fast and I started sweating and then I felt all dizzy and breathless and started crying :/
It turns out the baby is fine and I was worrying about nothing and I cant believe i let myself get in such a state that I practically had a panic attack or something! I felt really stupid after but it’s really shown me just how serious my anxiety and worrying is getting.
The problem is how can I stop it? I had a talk with my mum about it which has helped. Stopping all this compulsive worrying really needs to be the number one goal in my life right now, I cant let this continue any longer! 19 months ago
I’m starting to realize just how much my anxiety and the amount I worry is taking a hold of my life…I really need to beat this, starting right now. 19 months ago
