I give up! The problem is, what am I giving up on? I guess I’m giving up on ‘celebrating’ insomnia. Grrrr. I’d like to be on the ‘8-to-5’ clock, but I just can’t seem to get there. But, that’s the goal I’m switching to: get a regular (awake during the daytime) sleep schedule….

So I just took a Lunesta. Let’s see how many posts I can do here on 43 Things before it kicks in and I’m laying face flat on the keyboard typing things like this

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Gosh I need to go to bed earlier! My little eyes are closing. But I seem to keep finding things to do online. Naughty Roux, just go to bed! :)

Tomorrow morning, bright and early, I have my doctors appointment. That should be fun. I just love doctors and dentists… NOT! :) haha!!

Good night friends!!

nobody can understand what an insomniac goes through..
the want to sleep.. but the inability to sleep is a constant pain in the ass..

no.. drinking a hot cup of chocolate milk doesn’t help. It never did and it never would… just move past that..

no.. counting sheep doesn’t help too… it might help you.. that is if you are like 5 years old.

No… reading the Lord of the Rings by Tolkien, doesn’t help as well. I am a bookworm.. so I would devour that book. Are you trying to keep me up for the next couple of days. COme on.. you are trying to help me sleep here.. so not helping.

No.. don’t sing lullabies to me… you’d just make me laugh.

ok.. you ran out of ideas? whew.. thank god. now can I go to bed? You made me sleepy. yawnNnn. Hey.. cheers.. it worked!!

4:45am.

I seriously hate this. Hopefully when I wake up it’ll be pouring rain, at least then I won’t feel TOO guilty about wanting to sleep.

Oh, not that I’m going to sleep now though.

Back again- I would probably have a billion entries but I usually don’t have access to a computer whenever I’m up. Now I do, thanks to my Grandmother’s guest bedroom. Great. A computer, Nick at Nite, a telephone, and a very sweet affectionate cat. All of which I am “doing” right now.

HAhaHA. Typing, watching, talking, and petting. The cat of course.

I’m sure when some people read the above there were a few snickers… oh, you poor dear!

Accchhh. It’s only 3:20am now though. I start to get worried when it gets to be around 5am. THEN I know I’m in trouble.

going to be another 5am night. I can’t do it anymore. Especially since I’m visiting my grandmother now! It’s already 3:45am, I’m on the computer, and have Nick at Nite on in the backround. I need to turn all this SH*T off already!

I must say it was nice to receive the occasional E-mails from fellow creative late-nighters. Yay for working late!

But, now that school is done. It’s time to sleep a little. Can’t do it forever, you know. Need to recharge the batteries for the next big push.

So tonight I did some of my paramedic clinical hours at the hospital from 5pm until 1am. After that I went to the ambulance hall and chatted with the on duty medic for a bit while dropping off equipment that was left at the hospital. After going home I’ve been watching some tv, using my cheers here, and writing my blog entry.

I go on call with the ambulance in just 3 hours and 15 minutes. I also should be at work in just under 6 hours. So just how much sleep am I going to get tonight? I can’t take a Lunestra tonight since I don’t have eight hours. So will I get three hours tonight? Four if I’m lucky?

no one has given me a western name, yet!!!

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