Idk we broke up, or she dumped me 3 times. Some other guy that was her bestfriend liked her before she satrted crushing on me for a month, until with that information given to me [[from her bestfriend]] I asked her out, and she was really happy.
That one guy kinda fucked everything up, he tried to undermine the relationship, and always asked her to dump me, and when she did he would immediately try to go out like a pathetic dog, and she wouldn’t and come back to me. She one day told me she lied and did actually start to like him and that if I didn’t ask her out that day she wouldn’t most likely have been in a relationship with him the next day.. I Should fuck him up, but I actually like him as friend.
Then this other guy she talked to like everyday, even when we were going out, and he clearly liked her.. might end up going out now. It’s fucked.. She told me one day that she needed a break, so It would be easier to push them both away while single. We always talked about getting back together and expressed our feelings of love. the thing was before I graduated I got kicked out.. Then I said I fucked up I lost everything, I just hpe I won’t lose you. She said “you won’t, I won’t leave you!”... the next day.. BAM,.. we broke up.
then blahh blahh secretly going out, blah blah to really going out again until the end of the school year, and past graduation on 6/11. she didnt go wtf.. and we had the best time on 6/13 layed and pretty much fell asleep next to each other, the best day ever. I told her to decide real soon. and she said who do think I’m going to pick, and I say” me..?” but then the next day or I think the same day on our 3 months I sent her a txt while she was in the pool, and she called me. [[it was about how i was insecure and why I didn’t go into the pool, I just didnt like my nipples!]] and then it got to eventually out of no where that she wanted to be single for summer, and its too hot to cuddle not the right season for a bf. WTF is wrong with that bitch obviously, this one chick candy got her brainwashed from the last summers!! like my friend said.
and now she's starting school again and is going to be really super busy w/ no time for anyone, and get this I'm not allowed over anymore, or allowed to call, and she's not allowed to see me. becuase this one day we almost had sex, and I was upset becuase she said "no mitch I'm not going to have sex with you.. right now" so I felt so rejected and stop grabbing her boobs and pleasuring her, and just stoped laying there upset. she was like are you mad?? :) and then wtf you are mad !! >:[ and put her bra back on and was wearing my shirt still. then i was like wow... so I went in the bath room and she just layed on my floor. I took an extra long time to come out becuase I got a bloody nose, then went back into my room and layed on my bed while she was on the floor.... I didn't know what to say. Either I had a bloody nose or hey sorry I just felt kinda rejected and it hurt. but it's ok.but I waiting a little to long, and she got up said take me homee. threw my shirt at me, put hers back on and said cmon let’s goo. take me home! so I was like just sititing there like uhhh what? and sad, i tried to make her stay by trying to softly hold her, but she left my room, and went halfway down the stairs and said you gonna take me, or aam I going to walk?>?? so I took a little bit to get going outside, and sat in the car with her.
I didn’t know what so say i was sad, and I new she thought I only wanted sex, but that wasn’t true at all… so she just left my car and started walking down the street. I did what every guy does follow her in the car.. I said “fine, alright we don’t have to talk I’ll jyust drive you home!” she’s like ” no im walking”.
so I park my car there, and kinda follow her, trying to plead her to stop and talk about it, I freaking followed all the way home, saying I loved her, and it’s what you think. but then eventually she said” If you don’t leave me alone I’m going to call my dad right now!” so i kinda let up on trying to talk to her… and then I said atleast let me use your phone, i don’t have a ride back…. she said go to seans! and the I went left she went further down and right to her street and looked back at me. I knew not stoping her and reconciling would have adverse effects.. her sister [[older]] saw her pissed off and upset. and told her parents later, and hence why I can’t see her.. yeah fuck me. huh?
then one day um back, 7/14, becuase now it’s 8/4
see totally blew me off and this is a week or so after the incident that she forgave me for, she wanted me to come over, and she was tired, but she remembered I couldnt.. and said Idk I’ll get ready then called me back and said she’s gonna eat with her sis somewhere and she’ll call me back later to hang and doesn’t know if we are. I call her back and say when are you coming back?.. I guess I annoyed her, and she said stop calling, we’re not going to hang out today!! find something to do, bye!
so I said wow wtf?? i was pissed I saved that day for her. and now I have nothing to do. SO i said this is the last straw it’s been 1 month since the break up, i said if we don’t see each other today it’s fucking over…. so I was going to have a kickback anyways today but I called a bunch of my buds and told them and that im pissed and it’s a “I’m over Nicole kickback” so i posted a bulliten too, and ranted to one of my friends with the likes of fuck her! and saw her bestfriend and said Idk she blew me offf..
Then I called her after deleting her from myspace, and she said wtf? I’m not seeing you today! and i said, so it’s over.. and she hung up.
then party.. and funnn, and then she left me a message at 1130 about how it isn’t good bye forever, but bye.
then i called her at 130 or 1230, and just talked saying I didn’t mean, it I still love you blah blah, completely opposite of what she thought she thought I was going to say fuck you and that’s all. but yeah fuck me I still do and will always love her, it just sucks shes so busy and cares what her friends think about me, why can’t she just let go and be happy with me?>?
I’ll update later.. seems like we’ll never see each other for a while, maybe months.. idk fuck.. me.
