It is definitely freeing and scary to realize that after so many years of life that you are NOT alone and that YOU should not feel crazy. Being aware of your co-dependency is scary because the glasses you have been wearing to perceive your friendships, relationships, life have magically been wiped clean and NOW you can start to take control over your life. Not be manipulated into doing things you do not want to do…to finally put YOURSELF FIRST. It is liberating but yet scary.
For me, I realized a lot about my behaviors, my patterns,my obsessions, and my anxiety…...With positive support and GREAT friends I would not be able to do this alone. My friends can see things for what it is and I may not see them, because I have always worried about others before myself. I am working harder and harder each day to overcome this and take back control of my life. To finally feel good after hanging out with my friend and not drained or full of anxiety. It feels good to be around supporting and loving people. I would recommend reading books about Co-Dependency and talking to others who suffer from it as well. Attend 12 step meetings….keep doing it until you find one that is right for you. 18 months ago