Worry less.

A lifetime plan :)

But there’s so much to worry about in this world!
going insane

I was actually going to say I completed this goal. I don’t really feel like I worry much anymore. I’m very confident in my emotional relationship. We have a spectacular physical one, too. I have a good life. I really have nothing to worry about.

... right now…

End September, Michael is being deployed to Afghanistan. Perhaps I’ll keep this goal up a little while longer to see if, once he’s back home, I’ve kept this cool demeanor.

Cross fingers. That’s my heart going off to war.

I don’t know why I always insist in worrying more than I should. How can we worry about something beyond our knowledge? About uncertain things? Like the future?
Wish I could always forget about the world and my worries, about past and future, and simply live the present and enjoy the moments happily. Sometimes I truly can do that and others I’m just not able to, my head is full of thoughts and confusions. And I really try to overcome that in effort to my self-improvement and happiness, but, it is hard.

I just got back from visiting my hometown (I took a plane) and now I am sick with some sort of something not fun which includes a lovely sore throat, runny nose, head achs, stomach achs, and loss of appetite. You can probably guess where I am going with this since it is being written under the category of “Worry Less.”

But then again, the more I think about it, it would be kind of neat bitchin’ to be able to say, “I was infected with blank flu and survived!” right?

found these to be the general ideas on internet for coping with stress
-physical exercise (so true ….have been doing this)
-mindfulness
-controlling negative emotions
-be knowledgable
-social networking….open ones heart to somebody trustful
-meditation…if you have time!
-nature
-proper food
-suitable job
-TIME MANAGEMENT AND REGULARITY
-Hobbies unrelated to work
-calming music

Though the situation that I am in is not quite like this, the last sentence sums it up.

“When my parents let me have the car, I drive to upstate New York to visit Sean, and sometimes we’re off and sometimes we’re on, and often it’s exhausting not knowing, but sometimes it’s just better not to know.”

worring sucks. I hate worrying about what my ex girlfriend is doing all the time. It’s dumb too because i shouldn’t be because were not together. I want to stop worrying about her and frankly not care anymore because ( and this may sound dumb) it hurts not seeing if she’s okay or what she’s doing. It shouldn’t be any of my business anyway but for some reason i feel it should be. My heart keeps beating hard whenever i think about it and i start panicing, but there’s nothing i can do because she’s not going to be there. I don’t want that feeling anymore.

I did it. I watched P.S. I Love You. On a normal day, I am not one for melodramatic movies, but my sister made her husband netflix it, so I figured eh – what the hell…

And let me just say that the movie really wasn’t all that good bad. In fact, it was excellent. Any movie that can make me shed a few tears MUST be noteworthy, no? Let me tell you why it turned me into a pile of mush.

First, the movie starts off with the couple arguing about “plans”. The woman is ignoring her husband (who is not only a musician, but an IRISH musician. I’ll just inform you now that it is impossible to watch this movie without forming some sort of crush on this guy) for telling her mother that she did not want to have kids (“You said at my mother’s, you would have a baby, but that I’m not ready. TO MY MOTHER! You might as well have said I’m a lesbian!”), but in reality, the woman explains that it is not that she doesn’t want to have kids but that the time is simply not right. Why is the time not right? Because the couple does not have a plan. Yep. The movie is based on the concept of plans (at least that’s what I got out of it). If you know me at all, you know that I’m all about plans. I love plans, and I depend on them. However, this movie sort of made me realize that plans have a tendency to knock you flat on your ass and then laugh in your face.

The following lines (or scenes) are really the ones that got me:

Wife: ”...But we don’t have a plan. We can’t just do things without having a plan.”
Husband (sitting on the couch with a smile on his face, strumming at his guitar, relaxing): “Stop planning. Plans never work out anyway; they just end up letting you down. Live for today. You’re already here.”

... ahh, simplicity!

Also, there was an instance in which the wife was feeling pretty down about her job (she sells real estate) and said to her husband, “I don’t want to go back to work. What do I do?” and he said, “Don’t. Come lay on the couch with me and relax. Listen to me songs.”

Everyone in the world really needs someone like that in their life. Lucky for me, I already have one, but somehow knowing that made this movie even MORE sad since she loses hers, you know?

Anyways, watch it.

I am a chronic worrier. I’ve had this problem since I was a little kid. I remember being seriously stressed out about the rain forest and global warming on a near daily basis before I could even multiply. I don’t know how I ever got through college, since I was in a constant state of anxiety over my performance in classes and on tests even though I received nothing below an A-minus in any class. I’ve made some strides in recent years thanks to just putting myself in situations where I knew I would fail and just dealing with the after effects, such as coaching, substitute teaching, drawing peoples blood at the hospital etc…. Still, I have a long way to go before I get to the point where I can manage my stress levels in a healthy manner. If anyone has suggestions please share.