Worry less.

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Even though I’m not sure who that is – because all my life (since I was 12 years old) I’ve lived for everyone else…Who am I? and What do I honestly want? – and why am I so scared of the answers I might never find?

Been working with this one alot. Seem to be managing my irrational worries better and feeling better about myself. Still need some work on this one though.

I’m not doing so hot at this yet. Though, I’ve learned my parents actually worry about certain things more than I do. That’s a switch from a couple of years ago. Maybe that is a good sign.

These days, though, I worry about more important things, as opposed to the trivial. At least, that’s what I think. These days I spend more time worrying about whether or not I have enough to make it to my next paycheck; as opposed to whether that kid at work likes me or not. (Yes, that’s something I used to obsess over; whether people liked me or not).

After writing this, I realized I’m not doing so bad. I still worry about some things that I shouldn’t give a second thought to, but not as bad as I used to.

...a lifetime goal possibly, but I feel it is possible to reach.

all this long all i did was either worried about future or lingered on bad past memories. it sucks so much out of my life..i feel like i’ve missed living my life.
now i just want to worry less and live much

Ok, first a bit about myself. I’m 23 and currently studying graphic design. I also practice as a freelance designer and illustrator.

I’ve been a worrier since I was three. I’ve always been anxious and always afraid of silly things – the order went something like this – ghosts, death, heart attacks, health, heights, health, being alone.. and developed social anxiety in my first couple of years at university. Over the last couple of years these worries have culminated into panic attacks. I’m currently doing an online trial with a Sydney hospital using CBT (Cognitive Behavioural Therapy) to combat and tackle my anxiety.

The thing about worry is that even though you know it’s irrational you can’t help but worry anyway!

I try hard every day to stay positive and I believe I’ve made a lot of progress over the last couple of years by pushing myself to socialise, join clubs, volunteer as well as doing a lot of research online in to this condition to the point where my social anxiety has almost vanished. I’m still a worrier though! So I guess I’d like to do less of that, live more in the moment, and just be more relaxed.

Any advice is greatly appreciated :)

Yay go me!

i want to not worry about little things so much, and focus my energy on the big pitchure more.

I want to continue practicing the dbt skills in order to worry less and stay in the moment more.

When things happen it’s for a reason, and I would love to be able to take life as it comes. Being resilient like a tree that bends in a snowstorm, but then gets back up, stronger then ever. There is always going to be another mountain to climb, and I need to have the strenght to continue pursuing my goals without giving up.