I saw on a preview that Kathrine’s coming back for the next episode. Really excited! 6 months ago

Haha J has been watching season 3 nonstop. He’s obsessed and I love it. I just wish we could be watching together ; ( 7 months ago

I’m realizing that if I dress pretty, people, including men start to take notice of me. This happened tonight at pool. The guys from the other team were giving me pointers and even cheering me on. The women on their team didn’t appreciate it ; )

Utilize the pretty. 10 months ago

So tonight I went out with L to pockets. We hung out for about 2 hours (even though I could have stayed and played more). Then her boyfriend was supposed to meet us out in West Hartford. Well, I just lost confidence then. I didn’t ind hanging otu just her and me, but I dind’t want to hang out with V. I def didn’t want to go to WH. I’m not ready to be out in public like that yet. Right now I’m feeling pretty bummed about my situation. Like really bummed. I can’t belive this happened to me. I’m so embarassed and depressed and stuck and desperate. I really don’t know how much longer I can hold on…..even though I know it’s going to get a lot worse before it gets better. I just can’t believe this is how everything turned out…....and I feel like my friends are getting frustrated with me. This just sucks. And it hurts. and it’s embarassing. All around bad. Fuck me. 10 months ago

So tonight I think I was pretty KAtherine- esque. After watching tons of episodes of what not to wear, I’m realizing that I’m not using my “pretty” to it’s full potential. SO today I did. I wore a dress and straightened my hair and actually got a lot of positive attention for it. Then I hung out with J and well let’s just say it was like when KAtherine and Damon owuld get together. WE watched 2 awesome episodes of TVD. But when I left tonight…...he called me R…..i think he hoped I didn’t hear but I did. And I let him know in the most Katherine way possible. SO I think that’s teh end of this latest chapter with J. Although I don’t know, I could be wrong. Either way, it’s got me thinking a lot. 11 months ago

Had two conversations with boys today. May have even flirted a bit. It was fun. I should do this more often. 14 months ago

I tried last night, but I just broke down in the car on the way home with O. I’ve been trying to be outgoing and positive and fun and all that shit when I’m out but It just wasn’t happening. I’ve been on quite teh dry spell lately. I just want some random boy attention. Is that so much to ask? 15 months ago

Total Total failure last night. I tried to be sexy and positive but I was agitated that L and O came with me to Russian lady, O was annoyed about going there, then J gets there and is all talking t her friends and ignoring us so that was awkward. Then there were so many people, and O and L found guys to talk to, I had a mental block and was tired and cranky and just didn’t feel like talking to strangers, so I was pretty much by myself for the night. It was embarassing. and I stayed up way late again, had to wake up early to teach, and feel oiut of it today so I’m not gettign any work done. I’m just in a major funk. Meh. 15 months ago

SO I fully embraced this part tonight. At times I was acting like a brat and i like it…..at times i felt confined in the character, this first time I had ever felt that way. But it was cool. I actually watched a video montage of katherine beforehand (i know i know, it sounds incredible dorky). I was like katherine, but i still can’t help but notice that L got that attention. Maybe I was mean, but I liked it. 16 months ago

So this goal is dedicated to the character Katherine from the Vampire Diaries. She’s sexy, seductive, doesn’t take shit, and looks out for herself. I’ve found whenever I’m in a situaiton where I need to muster up some confidence I embrace my “inner Katherine”.

LAst night I could have done a better job with this. Althoguh there were times when I did feel confident, I liked M and should have tried to talk with him more. But S told me that she liked him and I could tell L did too. So I didn’t want to make it too obvious I was attracted to him. But then he left, asking no one in particular for a phone number, and we all sat there quiet and looked stupid. I should have said something. I should have been a Katherine. But I was feeling jealous that L was getting attention and, I dunno, I liked him so I was a little nervous. Boys never make Katherine nervous. I could have done better last night, use it as a learning experience and move on. 16 months ago