Yesterday I had to go in my closet for another pair of shoes because I got my other pair wet from shoveling wet heavy snow. When I went in my closet, I started looking for a closed toe pair of shoes. To my dismay there was only one lonely pair staring up at me. I thought for sure there was another pair. Nope, all open toe.
So two thoughts, either I need a few more closed toe shoes or I need to mover where it’s warmer so I can use my other shoes.

_{Just reflecting and not trying to understand at this moment.}2 months ago

~ pending surgery ~ I have had major surgery before I am not so worried about it. I just want it to be over with.
~ my mom ~ now that her surgery is over and it’s been a few weeks, she is still in pain. I know that she wants to heal quicker than it’s going. When I visited her yesterday, there was a different look in her face. It’s more like how will be this afterwards.
~ money ~ isn’t that always a worry
~ the boy moving to Florida ~ he has mentioned it and even went down there for a vacation. He has 3 different friends moving there. So much that swirls around my head for this one! I know it will come sooner than later and I need to be supportive. I remember that when I was his age and wanted to spread my wings, my mom shot my self confidence right in the heart. That moment changed my life path. I don’t want to do that for my son.
~ oh the little things I need to do before surgery on Tuesday 8 months ago

There are some days where it goes by unnoticed. Then there are days like today where I really need to get things in order for the things that are coming up in my life and feel that I am failing miserably. Today is one of those days. I should be writing down what I need to get done. If I don’t write a list then I flutter around doing three things that need to be done and the little things that I notice.
An example is that cleaning up the kitchen, then something leads me to the bedroom, I make my bed, fold the laundry. When I get to the towels I bring them to the kitchen. That reminds me I need to finish the dishes. Sigh… 8 months ago

with themselves.
I am grateful I saw this happening from the beginning. I met C the other day for the first time. Today he lit into me about things that only could mean that he is so insecure with himself that he felt he needed to project it onto someone else. He could have just said things didn’t click between us and left it at that. But nooooooo! He had to show his true colors. He opened his mouth and showed just how truly ignorant he is….

Next! 12 months ago

When in a cooking frenzy make sure at least two windows (to get a cross breeze going) are open with a fan going… other wise it makes for a smokey apartment with two fire alarms going off…

I think I understand this… :P 12 months ago

called Jodi Picoult’s Rules for Life

It was number 6 ~ Forgiveness and acceptance are not the same things.
For me, there really is a big difference between forgiveness and acceptance. If you forgive someone, you aren’t necessarily saying that what the person did was right. What you’re saying is, “I’m not giving you the power to make me a victim. I’m not going to let you invade my mind and make me hate you.” Forgiveness is not for the other person. It’s for yourself. That’s the way I see it. Whereas acceptance is really more of a caving in, as far as I’m concerned. It’s saying, “What you did, I’m okay with.”

I did a little of both and not realized what the turn meaning of it really was. I am working on the forgiving part for myself so in that I can heal properly. 14 months ago

are not meant to be understood. :( 16 months ago

to reflect on what one person said to me before I departed last week, that I needed my friends for support here. At first you think you can do it alone but I was glad to have understood how much I need this venue to be able to speak my truth with the support of my 43T friends around me.

Here is the understanding of the new user name -
It’s a take on the legend of Joletta’s Key reaffirms the power of a determined individual who can achieve victory against all odds.

Joletta was a handsome woman who was afflicted with severe back problems which caused her to walk with a noticeable limp. Although encumbered with chronic pain, Joletta not only married and had several children, she achieved spectacular success in a man’s world.

Despite her humble beginnings, Joletta became an enormously wealthy landowner and was renowned for treating her workers fairly and generously. She was beloved by everyone who crossed her path.

Joletta carried a unique good luck piece shaped in the form of a key, which she attributed to unlocking the doors to success in any endeavor of her choosing. It later became known as Joletta’s Key.

Among the rewards blessed upon you when you possess Joletta’s Key are:
~ Quick gratification in romance, finance, and games of chance.
~ Keep evildoers away from your doorstep.
~ Renew forgotten hope.
~ Mend a broken heart or heal a wounded spirit.
~ Expand your influence at home and work.
~ Unlock the secrets to happiness. 16 months ago