.Shit. 12 months ago

Alright.

Creative this morning, felt very excited, almost manic as I rushed to get ideas down 12 months ago

Woke up feeling depressed as fuark, better as the day wore on.
Meditated on the bus, it seemed to have made a difference. Got to course and finished my Lab, i feel alright 13 months ago

Bawss, 13 months ago

I feel alright, after a 12 hour sleep. Helped the old man clean the house, cleaned the church. I feel at ease no dep or anx. 13 months ago

I have help, and may today be the day. 13 months ago

sf 13 months ago

NFM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1 15 months ago

Right. 15 months ago

Hard as, Goddamn Ive lasted more than 2 weeks before, but this yet again is proving to be a real willbender. I must .. no I will resist, I will remember the reason I do this and that reason will not manifest itself overnight.

Im doing this to get control of my life. This is a necessary step. Habits built over years dont change in a day and i am sick of where I am and what I repeatedly do. I want more in life, to fucken live passionately and just get the maximum enjoyment out of everything. Everyday that passes is a missed opportunity; to
write that album, to get bigger, to get over that fear of the outside. Its been 6 years since Ive left home and I havent achieved shit, fuck staying in all the time in the comfort of my own little damp world, stewing in my juices. Im going nowhere.

Fuck if only,

:(

Help me someone 15 months ago

Tonight was great. I can only describe my inspiration as flowing!
I feel exceptionally great, and there was this playful vibe as I composed music. 16 months ago

... nothin else to say 16 months ago

Idlesness is my enemy. 16 months ago

Felt remarkably bas testerday when I fell. 16 months ago

will go the length of february without doing this.

No E,P, or M.

Just think of the long term benefits as opposed to the 8 second rush.

I can do this. 16 months ago

E’d for a bit since I was at home by myself. Was a tad dissapointed and it had a marked impact on my training session later on.

Either way I still completed everything and I feel really good right now. 16 months ago

creatif,insfired,@live tonight 17 months ago