face my fears

1. biking
2. driving
3. walking alone late at night
4. in general being alone in isolated places
5. being rejected
6. saying stupid things
7. writing stupid things
8. swallowing pills
9. dogs (plus other animals also)

I think those are the main ones. The thing is I didn’t have those before. Seriously, I can remember a time when I was not afraid. what happened? where did those fears come from? Ok, the fear of dogs and rejection fears have been with me for a while. But the others????

ok, so I got my drivers licence shortly after I turned 18, but since then, the number of times I have driven I can count on my hands…

at first I didn’t want to drive because I felt like I wasn’t really good enough yet. silly thing of course, cos I passed the exam! anyways, but then I hadn’t driven in quite some time, so I became afraid that I had forgotten how to drive, and I was even asking myself things like “wait, was the brake in the middle or on the right side?” :P
the longer I waited, the bigger this feeling grew of course..

so yesterday, we were with the three of us cos my dad was away to some island. my mum kindof hates driving, and my sister has been acting the same way towards driving as I have been doing. so neither of us wanted to drive really.. but when my mum asked me, I decided to face my fear and just get it over with.
so I drove! yay, and turned out that I can still do it :D

I’m struggling with a deadline again, and yesterday I reveived a message from a publisher and was afraid to open it. It will take some more time to finish this job.
Then I summoned up my courage and opened the message, and it said that I have a couple more weeks, because they are going to have a vacation now anyway.
So simple.

im scared!!!!!! of….singing … i have a voice filled with excitement but im afraid of wht PEOPLE MIGHT THINK>.> see there thats my prob….i worry about what others think..instead of what i think..im trying..each and everyday.. i will get over it!

my fear of public speaking

really going after what I want no matter what others like

I have three fears that I want to conquer.
1. Fear of Grasshopper. Seriously these things scare me more than anything because they jump.
2. Fear of Being photographed. I cower from cameras
3. Fear of dating/ relationships. I am afraid of dating in any shape or form.

Any advice?

I fear many things. Many…where I feel as if I am not living my life to the fullest. I’m not. There are many experiences that I am missing out on. I’m still young. This is supposed to be my time to do stupid, silly things. Instead, I always end up holding myself back. I’m always so bitter and serious when I should be the opposite of that. I worry about when I get older. I still will have a lot to look back on, but I will always regret not trying new things or meeting new people and getting to know them. But then I have a fear of talking to most people…I fear voicing my opinions. Those are just a few. But I hoping to change all that. I have a fresh start to look forward too. :)

I’ve had way too many lows in the past couple of years, and I’m the only thing in my way at this point. Time to shape up.

has been talking to older people. I guess I kinda grew up feeling like I had nothing interesting to say.

when I was a kid and grown ups were in the room, they’d be the ones having conversations and us children were not to intervere. whenever we tried to understand what the conversation was about, they’d hush us and go like “we’re having a conversation here, go play”

as a result I always just spoke to people my own age. when I came on this site, aged 16, I was amazed that “adults” would actually comment on my entries and talk to me as if age didn’t matter.

now that I’m supposed to be an adult myself (but don’t see myself as OLD), I started wondering when people are adult/grown ups/older.

you know, I think I should just stop obsessing about age differences when having conversations, but just to get over this, I want to have conversations with older people in real life as well.

I actually spoke to 3 women on the train yesterday, I think they were in their 50’s. yay me! :)

I’m on my way but it’s permanent work.