come so far — 1 year ago
I remember when I was paranoid just about what to wear to the gym, dark nailpolish, even going to a movie alone. This is a hard goal to measure, which a lot of my goals are (which is bad), but I have come such a long way with just chilling about what other people think. I remember I was nervous to go see Brokeback Mountain, but I really wanted to go because it was up for big awards and critically acclaimed, and I felt it was a cultural phenomenon of sorts. There was a moment in the movie theater when I felt the collective discomfort and I realized everyone sitting here in this totally packed room is just as tense as I am. I think that changed things for me. I am much more able to do things I may feel stupid doing now. You never know when things are going to shift.
Should I check off this goal? Nah, I think I need to get more bold still. I’m eyeing my tattoo goal…
