get over my fear of singing in front of people

I had my vocal review, for Kindermusik training, tonight. I sang fine all day. Then right before the review, I started jumbling up a certain part of one song. While on the phone with the woman for the review, I went to sing but my throat tightened and I couldn’t sing any high notes!!!!!!!!! OMG! It was soooooooooooooooooo SCARY! I hated it. I also started dropping lots of notes. The only reason I passed is because the woman said she could tell I’m capable by the way I stayed in whatever key I started in, consistently. I’m so crazed right now. I never want to sing again, lol. It was funny in a way though.

im a singer and ive been singing for a long time but im always afraid of sining in front of people and it got worse after 7th grade because not i crack when im singing in front of an audience and i know im good and all but idk …i jus need tips

i am 22 years old ..i had always had dreams that i would become a singer when i got older…but yet my dreams did not happen:s i have a little boy his 3 years old .. i have the most wonderful man any women can ask for:) so some of my dream came to life..so yeah i here still waiting to become someone:)

I can sing in front of family and friends without caring. That’s enough for me.

I dont know if I could handle a solo on stage in front of an audience of a thousand people, but I don’t really want the spotlight anyway. That’s fine. I don’t expect it to happen. So I’m checking this off!

but i mean, it’s BANANA PHONE!

although i dropped my vocal class, i did join a music class for children. i will be forced to sing in front of my class mates and children, but singing with children never bothered me. they don’t judge you. but the class isn’t all about singing. and who’s got the best voice. it’s, who can be the best children’s teacher. psht. and i’ve got that down. i’m a natural! so, my confidence is up. not to mention i’ve been nonchalantly singing around my friends here and there a lot more often than normal. i think i am actually succeeding on this goal. FINALLY. after 17 years of being so self-conscious. yeah, i became obsessively self-conscious at the age of 5. thus the root of my phobia.

Trying out for a new NYSSMA solo. But it was only in front of like 15 people…

I’m about to start doing this again too
Maybe I can finally check this off.

I seem to have this deep in grained “Fear” of Singing Solo in front of people. I think it’s ONLY because, I haven’t sung in front of people often throughout my lifetime. And even though I have sung in a “Choir” before for fourteen years out of my life. I DO NOT think that singing in a choir would qualify me to be able to sing solo in front of a crowd of people. NOT EVEN three JUDGES on “American Idol.” Plus, to add to that I have a very low self-esteem and no confidence what so ever in myself. Also, the strangest thing is that I know that GOD (just to say this as a Christian) wants me to become a songwriter/singer in the future. Though I DO NOT believe that this spiritual gift would ever guarantee that I would survive on A.I. Also, I still do not understand “How” in the HELL am I ever going to become a singer/songwriter if I have this HUGE FEAR of “Singing Solo” in front of people? “I JUST DON’T UNDERSTAND!”

so, i’m getting over the shock of publishing myself on youtube. what’s funny, though, is that my most popular song is a song i wrote about a year ago on having to pee. it’s been viewed almost 600 times, has been favorited 5 times or so and has been rated 5 stars by 4 different people. WTF. hahahaha… and it’s only been up for a week.
but yeah, i’m feeling a little less shy about posting my stuff on the internet, but i haven’t really gotten to the point of really letting it out around people. i due time. lets do this in stages.
in the meantime, here’s my “world famous” song about having to pee. HAH…. about as world famous as i’d get in a week with a cruddy recording and as world famous as i’m ready to handle right now, lol!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wkEI9mMvwTg

after years and years of writing songs and posting the lyrics online i finally came up with the guts to put up some of my songs. you know, of me actually singing them. i was always super against doing that, for one, cuz i don’t play an instrument. hoping that instruments would hide any vocal imperfections that may occur. but that’s probably a misconception. i’m sure that if someone sucks, no amount of instruments can hide the suckiness unless it’s so loud you can’t hear the vocals period. so yeah. i haven’t gotten any feedback yet on the songs i posted on youtube. which made me hesitant, but i posted one on my poetry website, and already i had two positive comments. not to say i’m looking for an ego boost or anything. i have a very strange perception of my own vocal ability. i’ve never taken classes and that’s because i’m terrified to sing in front of a teacher/class. in fact, i signed up for a class recently and just dropped it last minute cuz i totally freaked. but, i want to be told the truth. even if it’s not positive, you know? cuz i want to know, as a singer, where do i stand? no matter what, writing lyrics means the most to me so if i suck at singing according to the general public, then fine. but as long as people like my lyrics. that means most to me. but yeah. so, so far i’m taking this all right. even though the lack of comments on youtube is making me squeemish. maybe that means i’m mediocre. not bad or not good. mediocre. that’s why no one can comment. UGH! i don’t know. i think i’d rather be bad then mediocre, lol. i don’t like that middle ground. i like extremes. oh well..
if anyone is interested, you can search Harijan on youtube. and if you are interested in my song writing skills, here’s my poetry site:
http://allpoetry.com/Sandwich%20Massacre

look at me, broadcasting myself like i’m a whore. oh boy. i’m turning into an internet slut! NOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!! maybe it’s not so bad though. we’ll find out.