Since I lost my virginity I’ve basically never been abstinent, well for a descent amount of time anyway. I’ve gone from relationship to relationship and usually these relationships started with sex.

I’m sick of getting into bad relationships, and for the wrong reasons. I’m ready to find the one. I know that waiting until I am sure is definitely going to help me do that.

It’s been just over 4 weeks now. I know that isn’t very long in general, but sadly for me it is. I’ve met someone I really like but he is travelling for 6 more weeks. When he gets back (if things go to plan) we will date and I will wait, hopefully, a while before we have sex. My goal is to wait until we’ve been dating for 2 months, and not until we have spoken about and decided to begin a committed relationship. So in total that will be like 18 weeks, 4-5 months. I know it will sound sad to some people who find this easy, but I will be so proud of myself if I can do this.

A friend of mine, who smokes, once told me ‘Sex is your nicotine’, and she was so right. It is my addiction and I need to quit or I will never find the real loving relationship that I am aiming for. 15 months ago