each evening, make a plan for the next day

I need get back into it.

I almost forgot about this goal! Should probably cross-post with the support group…

So, tomorrow, I will do several things. Get through first editing run-through of paper in the morning. Find the nonprofit mail form on the web, and write to (1) Rosa, (2) Devin, (3) JG. Then I’m meeting the old colleagues for lunch and getting my hair cut. Need to organize something for potluck.

against my grain. When lists/plans work for me, they work, but it rqeuires a certain leavel of energy/emotional state; when they don’t, they don’t, and I can’t even make myself look at the damn things.

A deeper problem is that, right now, I’m having trouble seeing the big picture. The day-to-day stuff seems like a distraction and at the same time what keeps me alive. I have some ideas for the future but I am so engrossed in making a living, etc., right now, so as not to burn up my savings, that it’s hard to make progress towards future goals. Maybe it will just take some guts to walk away from the editing, etc., for a little bit in order to invest time in maintaining contacts, producing publicity materials, etc.

And then there’s the loneliness, which sometimes casts a shadow over my will to do anything. Like tonight. Exacerbated by a glance around the apartment at all the piles of stuff. I’m just one person; I can’t keep up with all this shit by myself.

and I have not kept up with it. Need to find a place to leave myself a little reminder…

it’s not enough to make a list. I need to arrange the items into something more like a schedule. A list is fine when I have a ton of energy and no structure and I can just run around like crazy, but most days I will have to be more strategic.

for today, a Sunday. It sort of turned into a regular to-do list. I noticed that the day didn’t quite flow in a particular order. Part of the issue was that I woke up at least an hour later than I had planned (not necessarily a bad thing, because I was trying to get over a chest cold, and succeeded). However, I did not have time to go to the gym; instead, I took a walk with my teacher, which was nice, though not as much exercise as I’d hoped for. I also ended adding some stuff – and of course, if I do something, I have to give myself credit for it by writing it down and crossing it out! Adding and doing laundry was a biggie.

We’ll see. In the end, I did most (not all) of the stuff I meant to, and then some. I had almost no unstructured time (and most of that I spent on this website – ahem). That’s ok; it was an ambitious day.

I am tweaking my list of things to serve as a master list. There are a few fun goals on there like “have a greenhouse” that I probably don’t need to worry about much in the near term.

It will be interesting to see what I need to do for my work tasks. I am hoping that regular deadlines and manageable chunks of work will get them done in their own course.

It has to balance aesthetics with effort. In other words, I might use special paper and a nice pen, but I don’t want it to be such a pain in the ass that I won’t bother.

One thought is to dig into the collection of stationery that has been collecting dust (maybe would even inspire me to write a few cards or letters?).

I will definitely refer to my goals when I do this, and it will help me keep my goals more practical.