I sent the email out to L. I should do more today, but it’s scary. Maybe I’ll just look at some postings. 11 months ago

REal soo I’m going to have to pick myself back up and realize that I NEED a job. I want one in admissions, so as much as it’s going to hurt, I think I need to contact L, maybe contact M, and go back to the drawing board. This is not going to be easy. But it’s going to come down to do or die sometime real soon. 11 months ago

I had a dream last night where I was taking an exam and I remember feeling like I was apart of something bigger then myself. I had this really great feeling as I saw myself doing something which I find challenging and stressful, but accomplishing it. It made me realize how much I need that in my life. It also made me realize how much I want to go back to school.

This goal means many things to me, but I think it all boils down to staying true to myself. If there is something that I want I don’t want to live in fear of what might happen if I try to accomplish it. The dream I had last night has made up my mind. I do want it more than I’m afraid of it, and I want to stop living in fear of uncertainty, and start living with passion for what I’m doing. What ever it is I decide that to be. 12 months ago

Haha this is quite appropriate fro right now. I may have to do something that may be borderline unethical for a better opportunity for myself. Oh well, that’s just how things go. I’m not even sure what the deal is yet. 12 months ago

I need to start putting myself out there with boys again. I have a few more weeks when I can hide behind my (valid) excuse of finsihing up my degree requirements and then I need to start dating again. It’s been so long since I had a genuine connection with a man and I need some practice. It is scary though. Especially since my girlfriends kinda have there eye out for me. There’s nothing like trying to find a guy when your girlfriends are being all “awwwwwww he’s cute you should talk to him come on go up and talk to him get his number blah blah blah” 13 months ago

So I changed the name of this goal because it reflect more about what I believe. The Old goal (Feel the fear, do it anyways) just talked about WHAT I wanted to do. This articulates more WHY I do it. Even though I may be afraid, nervous, or hesitate about something, if I value it, I will push through that fear. It’s more helpful to say this phrase to myself in the actual moment than the other goal. For example, I was vervous about attending my first professional conference this past Friday but I pushed through that nervousness becuase I WANTED the experience. 13 months ago