The problem with bottled up rage and having been bullied that long is… I don’t want to compromise and make peace.
I just want to make the statement that these people:
1) I hate.
2) They are insignificant.
3) I can’t believe how they find themselves to be the end all be all of everything! This?! This?! is what it’s all for? You want me to show up to this? You want to reproduce yourselves for more of this? For the celebration of disillusioned mediocrity?!
Guess the best way I have of doing that is ignoring them. I actually respect them too much by taking into account what they say.
My mind is not very sharp today, I don’t see how I’m going to defend myself.
I have fantasies of going Incredible Hulk on them, pushing the table in their faces, throwing food, assaulting them physically, screaming my lungs out. You suck! You have always sucked! Why are you people so satisfied with yourselves? Why have you forgiven yourselves? Why have you accepted yourselves as you are and not worked to be better???
I just don’t get it. 13 months ago