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come to terms with my sexuality


 

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    more thought 3 years ago

    well i’m not sure i’ve imporved since i started this quest…

    maybe i have taken a step backward…

    hmmm

    maybe i just need to write more… openely…

    it’s been great writing here about my feelings…

    maybe that’s all i need…

    but i don’t want to turn this into a sex blog… i feel that 43things is not censored enough for me to write about this stuff…

    so maybe i need to start a blog that can be my personal sex blog…

    i used to have about 6 different blogs and now i only use myspace…

    i don’t want to write stuff there because too many of my housemates read it…

    hmmm melodramatic and livejournal is filled with too many young people…

    maybe i just need to start a new blog…

    i love google and everything they do… maybe i should start a blogger.com

    ok… i’ll do that

    mike



    ok... another sex talk 3 years ago

    wow.. i just wrote a long ass post about this and it got deleted…

    that really sucks…

    hmmm let me try again… i guess…

    i was saying before that i wanted to look into the reasons why porn gets me off…

    when you think about it, porn is strange…

    take a picture of a naked woman… usually the pictures is manipulating you to think a certain way… photography has so many ‘tricks’... like airbrushing, or lighting, or close ups… all these things are used to cover reality…

    also photos takes an essential part of sexuality… first… it takes you out of the factor…. i can’t react to this person… i can’t flirt with them… i can’t tease them… i can’t hold them in my arms… i can make love to them… i can’t fuck them…

    also it takes them out of the factor… they might as well be dead cause they are just a picture… i can’t see them breathing… i can hear the noises they make… i can’t hear them talk dirty to me… i can’t hear them say “i love you”…. they are dead…

    so what is the point? if they are as good as dead to me then why am i getting off on them?

    all the good things about sex is sacrificed with porn… man… to feel a girls goose bumps as you run your hand over their stomachs is priceless…

    ok ok… i know that i don’t get sex all the time.. and i need to release… but i can’t just go up to any woman and say “lets fuck”… i’m too shy to be like that and truthfully i worry too much about STDs and AIDS

    so… masturbation is perfect…it helps with sexual frustration… it helps me go to sleep…. ummm wait… i think there is a list somewhere online

    1. Because masturbation is immensely pleasurable, invigorating, rejuvenating and fun.
    2. Because masturbation proclaims that sex is good in, by, and for itself.
    3. Because masturbation makes you a better lover.
    4. Because you can have more sex more often.
    5. Because sexual pleasure is each person's birthright.
    6. Because masturbation is the ultimate safe sex.
    7. Because masturbation is a joyous expression of self love.
    8. Because masturbation offers numerous health benefits including menstrual cramp relief, stress reduction, endorphin release, stronger pelvic muscles, reduction of prostate gland infection for men and resistance to yeast overgrowths for women.
    9. Because masturbation is an excellent cardiovascular workout.
    10. Because each person is their own best lover.
    11. Because masturbation with a partner can be educational and hot
    12. Because masturbation increases sexual awareness.

    ok… so… i need to ask myself… how do i get off on my own healthy imagination and not porn…

    I’ll write about this over the next few days



    another one about sex 3 years ago

    wow… not masturbating for a few days has made me really horny…

    makes me wonder… do i have a sex problem…

    do other people think about sex so much?

    well… i still believe that masturbation is healthy and i’ll stick with that…

    i did have a really hard time getting off to my own imagination…

    well the process is much longer

    i think i can train myself…

    mike



    hmmmm 3 years ago

    i did well.. it’s such a weird gola to have… but… day one down…

    i actually don’t lnow what to say but… i’ll come back to this once in awhile to tell what i’m doing…

    oh… wait… i felt closer to a lot of my housemates today… i mean real close…

    it was such a great day!



    strange post... about sex... don't read if your an asshole or not comfortable with sex issues 3 years ago

    OK… there are two parts to this goal…

    1. my house is very comfortable with their sexuality… sometimes it goes way too far and orgies end up happening (no joke)... but i am in no way comfortable with this… part of me wants to make out with any girl or boy in the house but the prude in me hides…

    it’s partly that I’m not comfortable with my body… the other part of me gets too emotional when i get physical…

    so.. damn… i want to… i want to be comfortable with my friends the same way they are… a lot of work will need to be done to break those barriers…

    2) on the other hand i am a very sexual person… i think about sex all the time… and sometimes i wish a could turn it off… so it’s strange cause my house is very open about sex andi think about sex all the times… but… i can never connect the two…

    I’m a perv… and i hate that I’m so closed minded about certain things but secretly beating it off over an image over the Internet…

    i really want to switch the two… stop looking at porn on the computer… and feeling more comfortable with the people i actually care about…

    and also… i want to stop coming off as a creep to girls… i mean… come on!!! i really don’t try to be strange… but it happens all the time…

    i have sexual issues that need to be worked out…

    i think this post is good cause it’s very honest for me… rarely I’m i honest and open about sex…

    so this is a good start…

    what am i going to do? give up porn on the computer… i think masturbation is fine… everyone does it… but i think the objectification that porn present is unhealthy for anyone’s mind… that’s set…. i’ll give it up starting tonight

    OK…

    mike




     

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