Oh it’s freaking adorable. I cannot believe how amazingly lovely it is. Things are slowly coming together, and in my favour (mostly). I don’t do well with stress, so finding out that the phone /broadband engineer had been booked for two weeks before I move in just drove me mad. Gah! I hate incompetence. But I need to relax.

The place itself is gorgeous – all nooks and crannies with loads of unexpected storage (under windows, little cupboards, even a trap door). The only things I need to buy are new large rugs and curtains for two rooms, although it has shutters. It’s like this amazing cottage in the middle of a city. And cheap – I feel so much that the universe has come through me big time!! 12 months ago

God, my anxiety levels are through the roof. I paid my deposit and sent my lease in, but the letting agency won’t acknowledge it. It’s only been since the weekend, so maybe I’m over reacting. But…I’ve emailed and asked the guy dealing with my lease to get back to me and he just won’t, and the office is rude and fobbing me off. Which is making me suspicious and annoyed.

Their office is just around the corner from where I work. I just feel powerless and stressed. I’ve given notice to my current landlord, I’m booking phones and removal companies – and these assholes are just rude and dismissive. I want to walk away, but I can’t because of the deposit, and because I have signed a lease, and I really really really want the property.

I also can’t work out if I’m over reacting. I was supposed to go and see the property again on Monday to take photos, but the guy dealing with my lease just don’t answer my emails or take my calls.

I’m trying to work out a plan of action, and I’m just too upset. I want to go around there this lunchtime, but it feels like I’m not giving them a chance to get back to me. So I thought I’d do this:

- call on Monday morning
- go around Monday lunchtime
- get a receipt and a signed lease

Over the weekend, I’ll just accept that I’m not doing anything but giving them a few days without phoning. The reason for doing this? If I do it on Monday, that’s the day that I’m supposed to go around there. Also it’s clearer that they are being rude and awful, whereas today it’s borderline whether I am over reacting. If that makes sense. I’ll have a clearer position, I think, and can be more legitimately fed up with them. 12 months ago

- got a quote from BT for Infinity and Broadband
- a work colleague spoke to me about borrowing crates
- got another removal quote (well, ordered it)
- cleared out top shelf of the pine bookcase
- threw out two tops because they were too big (getting ruthless!)

Still not a formal acknowledgement from the agency about my lease. Will chase on Thursday. 12 months ago

- signed, scanned and sent the lease
- paid the deposit to the letting agency
- asked current landlord to confirm the rent
- get a quote for insurance (£78 + £200 excess)
- called landlord to ensure it’s mine (it is)
- removal company to give me a quote on Thursday
- finished decluttering bookshelf
- bathroom shelf

Good day. Still cannot believe that I have the home that I ordered, it’s weird!! 12 months ago

But it’s perfect – I love everything about my flat! My stress levels are quite high at the moment, just jittery and excited about everything, but I miss the grounding of writing here all the time, so am going to try to update because it calms me to keep a journal. 13 months ago

Okay, I ordered that I would find a new home like in the title – and on viewing three, I think that I found it. I’ve put in an application, so fingers crossed that it will be mine. But it just met so many of my ‘must haves’, it’s hard to believe. I mean it’s amazing, I feel very very very lucky.

It’s gorgeous – a cottage with a garden in the city centre, that’s twenty minutes walk from work, in a very very fancy area, that’s affordable and adorable. It’s small with storage, and 19th century. It even has a cat flap!!!

I love it – I feel so weird that I ordered this last week, and the universe produced it on the third go. Nothing else has even come close, to be honest. 13 months ago

Well, I’m not downhearted, but I saw two places yesterday. The first one was in a horrible neighbourhood, and the flat was nice enough, but not right.

The second was in the most amazing neighbourhood, loved it. But the flat was tiny, basically a small studio flat with no storage. It just wouldn’t have worked, but it was adorable.

I felt super stressed last night, but I re-worked my budget, reassured myself that I have a LOT of wiggle room, and I woke up this morning feeling relaxed and energised. So not a problem. I’m not in a hurry, and I know that the universe will provide an amazing home for me! I’ve got three flats to see today, one I’m very very keen on. 13 months ago

So I just need to go and see them – it’s going to be a super busy week, to be honest. 13 months ago

Until I find the home that I want. I’m not looking at any new flats today, but have five lined up for the next three days, and put in a note of interest to a lot. It’s going to be a tiring few weeks, but at least it’s going to make me leave work on time! I might take a day off work as well, if that would help, next week. 13 months ago