jot down random fleeting thoughts and ideas

I thought this was beautiful. And, I just had to share it.

“Beauty pleases the eye. only sweetness of disposition charms the soul” – Voltaire

inconsistent sand spinning down through a tunnel to a pyramid-like pile, just dropping the seconds away from the day..

a friend and former roommate of mine died this past weekend.

he was only thirty.

the last time I saw him was at a party at my house where we had a bit of a salon, where everyone was sharing their special talents. He did an impromptu art/intro to california wildflower demo - where he simultaneously sketch-painted and talked to us about the various wildflowers we could see if we but looked. my favorite of these was this lil blue one. At least I think it was this one, or a very similar one. At this point, if he were here, he would give me a teasing hard time about not remembering the flower’s name, and I wish he were here to do so.

Unshelved.
I Love love love it!
here’s the latest:

so now am going to be late to work, as really really want to wash hair!

looks like a loopy big dipper right about now.

hee!

an up and down day.

some irritations at work.
some irritations at home (last night, when i got home, my roommate informed me that the toilet was clogged and was not unclogging. This is on top of having no hot water ever since a thunderstorm from a week ago did something to our hot water heater)

but some bright spots too…
seeing an interesting apartment for rent…

meeting up with an a$$h073 of a broker who nevertheless cracked me with his nondiplomatic ways…

the light coming from down by 3rd street…

the garden near my current place…

or want to, rather…

i have this uber-competitive friend…

she works at a library, just like me.
she goes to library school, just like me…

but our lives are different. she is married and has kids and is now back in the workforce after years of being an at home mom…

every time i say something, she responds in a way that highlights how much more she is doing than I am, and how much more she is juggling, at work, at school AND at home….

i tell myself that everyone has different goals, and mine just aren’t the same as hers, but sometimes i feel myself forced into a competitive feeling…

my normal way of dealing with this would be to withdraw from the friendship…

but she is a good person at heart, and so I don’t wish to do that… i just wish that things weren’t always so much a comparision thing with her… “you did that? Well I did this, that, and the other!”

you know?

how do i gently disengage from the competitiveness while retaining the friendship?

from the smart funny library comic strip Unshelved

if i should ever be in a position of power over someone else, that i will remember back to the days of not having power, and that I will not be vindictive and petty