fulfill my mission as indigo adult

My name is Yang, 21, a transfer student from China, came to US 2 years ago.
Some miracle happens to me these days, it was a long talk and i am suck at describe it.
However, it makes me start thinkin about the origin of life and the Universe, which I often thought about when i was a child, but never being convinced.
Recently, I was keep being enlightened when my thought goes deeper, it makes me sometimes laugh so hard which I have never been though before and sometimes cry so hard like a little baby.
I am so scared and I dont wanna go crazy cuz I dont want my family and my friends feel sad about me.
I know it is hard for someone to believe my experience, I can feel the end and the begining of the world is coming, everything is a circle, it is beautiful and it all make sence.
My grandma is a Buddhist，I learned some Taoism when I was in Middle school, now I am a Christian。
All religions only believe their own, I think its the only lie that gods has told us, the purpose is to separate them all over the world.
When those thoughts generate together, it actually describes the same thing, and that thing help you going to a higher level world, where has no pain and fear.
I remember a book which I read a long time ago, a prophet says: when the east spirit combined with west technology, the whole world would encounter a great impact. I think the time is coming.
To know the meaning of life, is to know the rule of the game that gods is playing, I think I already know what the rule is.
Please responce me as soon as possible, I am so anxious…

My Email: my0004@uncp.edu

About 10 years ago, I was told by a friend that she thot I might be Indigo. It didn’t mean much to me then…I was more interested in drugs back then. Another friend told me, even before that, that she thot I was a healer. These things stuck in my head, but I didn’t do anything about it. It is becoming increasingly clear to me that I do need to embrace my differences instead of trying to hide them. I’ve always known I was different. I feel and see things differently than anyone I know. I have dreams that scare people when I tell them about it. When I come close to a being’s pain, I can feel it. I have come to know that I am an Indigo, and that is the key to finding my path. I need help, tho. I need guidance.

I have recently been going through this crazy change in which I am more conscious then I’ve ever been before. It all started one late night evening aboout 2 months ago. I felt the strangest things happenning inside me and I started crying because I couldn’t explain it. I knew I couldn’t share this experience with just anyone.I knew nothing about indigo people. My friend is the one that suggested that I was an indigo adult. From then on I started reading into to it and I was in complete shock when I read up on it. I am still coping with this whole indigo reality. I feel like everything is suddently connected. I love trees and nature more now then ever before. To be honest this is a scary experience because everyday people can’t comprehend what I am going through. I have been researching things that I never thought in a million years i would be interested in. This is the first time i am reaching out to people. So someone anyone help me understand what is happening

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I have always been weird. Always been emotional and community centered. I wanted to save the world, really save the world. So much so that I would cry myself to sleep. I pray for the other peoples pain that I can somehow feel. I had to learn to distance myself while still loving.

I have had psychic and apocolyptic dreams, but I rarely speak of them because it seems so austentatious. I don’t want anyone to think I am bragging or crazy or whatever.

i have recently discovered i am an indigo adult and i am striving to find more like me so i can greater discover my petential. anyone intrested in talking should e-mail me at lillifey#hotmail.com

I was sitting down with an intake counselor for my alcohol class answering all of his questions to the best of my ability. They all were pretty basic. Stuff about my past going as far back as grade school. After making it through three fourths of the questions, he pushes his chair back and looks at me like he just had an “aha” moment. He then told me that I was an Indigo Child. I didn’t know what that meant at the time and I’m still not completely sure what that means now. But it was great to meet someone who understood me and why I was doing the things I was doing. I’m now on a path to use this new information to finally stabalize my life and be useful to society.

just recently i started to change. at first they were little things like eating habits and the things i was into but it has gotten to a point were: my dreams are coming true, i have like this “electrical current” in me, i feel, for a lack of a better word, more stupid. i fear i am becoming a crystal being. not that there is anything wrong with being crystal exept i do not want to go through the whole transition just yet. i want to remain an indigo at least until i am 22 but i don’t think i’ll make it that old being indigo. crystals tend to be loving and forgiving, which is the exact opposite of who i am, and i want to keep my indigo “warrior” spirit. i feel being crystal will make me weak and vulnerable.

Im not sure whether i believe in the term of Indigo but, all i can say is that i have very strong resemblances with this theory. I can sink into an emotional ball very quickly, and once so i can rise very profoundly quick too. I like feeling through everything, its the only way i can be. I just have this strong sensation i shouldnt be where i am at the moment, i should be somewhere out there-in the world. I have acknowledged that this is not ‘running away’ it is simply being.

I don’t know but my depression is severe but my openness to beauty in things and their profound effect on my emotions is growing.