Experiment with drugs.

shrooms are awesome. they make you see more to life. highly recommended! if i were some kind of suicide psychiatrist or somethin, i’d prescribe some shrooms, they’re that powerful. you also experience intense mental clarity, feels like you have more brain activity than usual.

e is still my fav.

Does sniffing glue count?
It doesn’t work, anyway.
:-!

When I think back to my times on ecstasy, though I was laughing and thoroughly enjoying it at the time, a kind of negative haze of feeling surrounds the events. I don’t really understand why.
Maybe it has something to do with my depression?

It is this feeling that makes me want to stop playing around with these things that are probably much bigger than I imagine.

I also really don’t like myself on ecstasy, while I’m on alcohol I am stupid and slutty, on E I have no inhibitions, which, in turn, means no shame.
Very, very bad.
Especially considering the amount of time I spend obsessing and analysing my actions and generally being very self aware/conscious. This means I pretty much immediately regret everything that I did while on E.
I’ve had plenty of opportunities to try LSD, but it’s this that’s holding me back really. Well, and the complete lack of control I’ll have while on it.

Mdma: To say this was ‘pure ecstasy’ I was quite disappointed. I just felt sleepy. Psh.

Cannabis. Check. Giggles !

Ecstacy. Check. I don’t like myself on this drug, everything feels better though. Social interaction is so much easier and everything feels like it matters. Increased empathy.

Cocaine. Check.

Experimentation is liberating at first, just remember that to much of anything is a bad thing…