be productive

I do not want to pull all-nighters consistently. Tonight is an exception. I am behind in all my school work and must get as much done possible before 11 am today. So far I have banged out one report (took me 4 hours unfortunately) but I remain optimistic that the rest of my work will be a bit easier. To beat my procrastination I have to;

ELIMINATE FEARANDCULTIVATE DESIRE

Its harder than it sounds. Even now procrastination is kicking my ass. I want to do my homework (thats been due for two weeks already) and the ones due tomorrow. AHHH. It’s all piled up and seeks to take one great big swing at me with a metal bat.

BE PRODUCTIVEBE PRODUCTIVE

Tips are always appreciated.

By the end of tomorrow, I have to complete the following tasks:
Write/mail Mike a letter
Vacuum my room
Develop my film
Write my mom a letter
Write Christmas thank you cards
Cleaned my car, in and out
Recycled papers
Worked on ERJ
Worked on research paper
Cleaned hallway

As an adult I need to know what I am doing in my life is substantial and significant. I need to be apart of something more than the norm.

I suffer from manic depression and i’m not on any medicine right now. I am so tired of taking pills everyday so I stoped and now I don’t know who I am or what to, I don’t feel like doing anything, I can’t commit to anything because the next moment i think it’s a waste of time and i hate myself for it. So now i figure i should do something productive, i cut my family practicly out of my life except for my mom but i do know that most of everybody does not understand what i go through and they feel i am being some tpye of way about them and some even calls it selfish, but I think I can be around my family again. As far as the meds, no not right now.

and there isn’t enough being done! Although I do do work, and I do hear bubblewrap being popped which is really fascinating work.

I’d like to be able to look back at 2008 and say ‘oh, that was the year I did that, that and that. And it was good. Yeah.

I don’t want one day to go by that I do nothing. I want to be creative and do something everyday that matters to me.

Finally, I feel like I had a productive day. Now, tomorrow, I need to be super-productive!

I am productive, and you are too. I know that you are. You’re being productive right now, and I’m here to tell you that you are doing a great job! Thank you for your presence, because Your peace and prosperity radiates through the universe affecting all that is and ever will be.

productive is most definitely a relative term. i can’t define the measure. i give up.