Earn a living

WELL IM A FRESH 18 BUT I FEEL LIKE A LOSER ADULT WHO CANT KEEP A JOB,BUT I CANT EVEN SAY THAT BECAUSE I HAVN’T EVEN HAD A REAL JOB YET I LIVE WITH MY AUNT AND SHE IS SICK OF ME AND AT THIS VERY MOMENT IM ON A 1 MONTH CLAUS WHICH MEANS IF I DNT HAVE A JOB IN A MONTH SHE’S GONNA PUT ME OUT AND I FEEL SO CHILDISH FOR I CANT EVEN KEEP TRACK OF MY SOCIAL SECURITY NUMBER..IM 18 AND I DONT EVEN KNOW HOW TO GO ABOUT GETTIN A JOB IM SO AFRAID OF THE REAL ADULT WORLD I JUST WONDER IS THIS WAT MY LIFE HAS COME TOO??I MEAN ALREADY IM ON THE TIP OF BEING A BUM AND IV’E ONLY BEEN AN ADULT FOR A FEW MONTHS TALK ABOUT A SHAKY BEGINING BUT THE SCARY PART IS I WANT SO MUCH MORE I WANT TOO GET OUT AND BE GROWN BUT IM SO INSECURE THAT SOMETIMES I WONT GO OUTSIDE FOR WEEKS BECAUSE I DNT FEEL COMFORTABLE WITH THE WAY I LOOK, HOW COULD I KEEP A JOB WHEN I WOULDNT WANNA GO IF I DIDNT FEEL COMFORTABLE WITH MYSELF ..IM SO CONFUSED ABOUT THIS NEW WORLD I HAVE ENTERED I MEAN I DIDNT GET MUCH FOR X-MAS AND I ALMOST BUSTED OUT IN TEARS BACUASE I DIDNT FEEL LOVED BUT THEN I REALISED IM GROWN NOW AND IM SUPPOSED TOO BE GETTING PRESENTS FOR FAMILY NOT REACIEVING IT’S THINGS LIKE THAT THAT LET ME KNOW IM NOT READY TO BE A MAN….IM SOOO CONFUSED !!!!!

working hard is useless.use your head is the most important thing in earning career.