look ahead, not behind

I added this goal because sometimes I look at the past and think “wow how did that happen”? If I let that thought continue then I end up doubting myself or not exactly feeling confident to go cruising forward so enough is enough. The past is going to stay there – which I already knew but it’s sometimes harder than it sounds. Our life experiences have helped define us as people. Some people just have the ability to let things fly off of their shoulders as if no responsibility could ever be so great a burden as to leave a scar but I don’t usually find these types of people to be very “deep”. I find it annoying really. I think life, with all of it’s pain and memories ALONG WITH all of it’s joy and happiness should be shared and remembered but created from the past – not created with it. I refuse to carry my past into my present and have it muddy the water when it’s not necessary. When there have been times when my decisions have been bad then I am accountable for those and will do my best to be better and remedy any damage done (accountability) but my present will be my gift for having survived my past. That’s why it’s called a PRESENT.