... I fail so much that I might as well eat failure for breakfast. The numerous kinds of failure that have befallen me are like breakfast cereals from which I can choose.
That’s right, I failed the Qualifications Evaluation Pannel. I was fairly certain that I was going to fail this portion of the exam simply because I am young and Master’s-less.
However, I do not despair at the numerous breakfast cereals of failures from which I can feast, for dwelling on failure (except as a way to examine a mistake and improve) does nothing but create more failure. Oh Failure Breakfast, you Foolish Fiend! I will not get sucked into that trap! Nice Try.
I am not really ready to be a diplomat yet. I think that I need to grow and learn more about myself and the world before I can be a diplomat and before I can decide whether I even still want to be a diplomat or not. When I first passed the Foreign Service Officer Test, I panicked because I knew that I was not ready to be a diplomat and that I was not sure I even wanted to be a diplomat anymore. This is one of the first goals that I ever added to 43things. I chose diplomacy as a career path, because I love to travel and it seemed to be the best career path for one who wants to travel. Now I still want to travel more than ever, but being a diplomat seems to involve mostly bureaucracy and being-a-yes-man. I would have to defend causes/beliefs that I do not believe in. I can physically do that, I am quite an eloquent speaker and talented at making logical arguments, but ethically I can not do that.
I am happy with the idea of working in Korea as a teacher for a little bit to raise money for graduate school and then potentially getting a PhD or going into the non-profit sector. I love the idea of being able to travel on my own for a little bit to raise money to learn, that feels right. One of my favourite professors did just that before he got his Master’s degrees and PhD. My mother insinuated, however, that getting a job in Korea was a kind of failure on my part. If an adventure in Korea is a sort of failure, then I am happy to be a failure. 12 months ago