LuneFromage dances the line between two worlds...
Oh! THAT Ambassador who works at my University and can help me get a job in International Relations…
I should talk to her…
My only fear is that because I will be representing my government, I will have to be proper all the time and will lose myself…
I always want to remain a kid in spirit, I do not want to lose that for anything. Will wearing a suit and tie everyday and talking about politics drown my spirit? I hope not, I hope my spirit is stronger than that.
I hope I will always act as I wish to act. I will always seize the day, no matter the work I do…
I do not know if this is the career for me.
It’s not a matter of sinking or swimming, I will swim. I am a great swimmer. I think it’s a matter if I will just be a swimming body and if my soul will have to live elsewhere for a while… I can’t put my soul on hold. I can’t tell it to wait while I work. I have to keep it with me at all times. That’s the deal.
In a world where so many do not know their purpose in life, I know my purpose quite well: to enjoy life and to help others along the way, to always stand up for what is right and squeeze the wonder out of life. To never miss a second of the splendor…. Yet, with all my knowledge of my own purpose I still wonder if the job which supposedly will be great for me will leave me satisfied or not… and knowing myself I will probably say it is great, even if there are problems. I will try to make the best of it… I need to promise myself now that I will be honest with myself.
Me: Self?
Me: Yes Self?
Me: Do you promise to tell me if you do not like being a diplomat?
Me: I’ll try, and that’s supposing I even get a job as a diplomat…
Me: Okay, so promise for any job/career that you will tell me if you do not like it… So that we can change it. okay?
Me: Okay, I’ll try. I’ll try to be honest. I’ll really reflect on the situation.
Me: Do you promise to not suppress that child inside? To not supress yourself? Your true being? (Whatever that means…)
Me: Yes. I promise. I could never hurt a child, especially if that child is myself.
Me: That’s all I can ask.
Me: Do you think it’s at all strange that you’re having a conversation with yourself? Strange That you are not only having a conversation with yourself, but typing it for others to see?
Me: A little, but hey, I’m a strange person.
Me: Indeed.
And maybe my chosen cone “Public Diplomacy” will make all the difference… It seems to deal more one on one with people and cultural events, so that means that I do not have to suppress myself…
Hopefully I would quit anything that asked me to suppress myself. Hopefully whatever it is that makes me me will shine and exist regardless of what I do.
I hope.



