Don't Die Wondering

There are things I question: about myself, about the person I am with marek, about friendship and love, family, about growing up and getting old, about perspective and life choices. I’ve come to realise that one can never truly start over… but one can begin creating a new ending. I guess the noise in my head is really just the parts of me I don’t want to sacrifice or compromise; they’re getting louder, fighting to be heard over all the changes and opportunities I have to feel. My worry is that the potential is there for me to overlook myself; that it may happen if I don’t wake up because it is easier to be comfortable and settle. I just want to make sure any decision i make in the future is not something I make out of fear. Everything is changing, something that excites me, but right now, I’m not sure if I’m ready to jump. It’s hard because stuff is good for once.