I sort of hit a slump mid-way through the month. Curiously, this coincided with the week preceding my personal Shark Week. So: PMS interferes with, you know, feeling like doing stuff. Imagine.
For the most part, I’ve gotten things done and nearly the way I’ve wanted to do them. I’m grateful that I set the bar higher than necessary; sure, I always feel like I’m slacking off, but I’m slacking off AND getting the really important things done. Who cares that I didn’t floss my teeth EVERY night? or ate 4 cookies? or did my homework two days before it was due instead of a week early? I was raised Catholic, I know how to deal with guilt, and I especially can live with feeling guilty over an A- performance instead of an A+.
The things I rocked:
+Got all my work & school stuff in order (semester maintenance is going to be its own thing)
+Organized my room, car, and closet
+Tied up a lot of loose ends on unfinished projects
+Hung out with people
+Exercised at least a few times a week
+Ate lots more fruits and vegetables DAILY & drank more water
+Shook off caffeine dependence
Things that fell to the wayside:
-Did not meditate a ONCE. I really believe in this. Why is it so hard to make time for it?
-AM/PM yoga: I just didn’t feel excited about the DVD. I should give it another try before making my final call on it; it would be worth building the habit so that I can eventually develop a personal sequence
-Car maintenance. Still need to check my oil level… and I should probably do something about the rust before winter rolls in.
-Personal hygiene: It’s a little embarrassing to know that, as an adult, there are nights when I somehow can justify saying to myself that I’m too tired to go through the 2-minute effort to brush my teeth before bed. For shame! Girl, take care of your grill!
-EXERCISE MORE REGULARLY. EAT LESS GARBAGE. Seriously. Things are already going downhill on this thing (you know, my bod)... it’s a matter of sloooowwwwwwinnggg down the rapid deterioration before things just get uncomfortable. All. The. Time.
The rest: KEEP ALL THE BALLS IN THE AIR!!! 19 months ago
I know this is old-hat for a lot of folks, but I still love how well Ally of Hyperbole and a Half (http://hyperboleandahalf.blogspot.com/2010/06/this-is-why-ill-never-be-adult.html) lays out the ongoing struggle with responsibility that some people call adulthood>
”...A a few times a year, I spontaneously decide that I’m ready to be a real adult. I don’t know why I decide this; it always ends terribly for me. But I do it anyway. I sit myself down and tell myself how I’m going to start cleaning the house every day and paying my bills on time and replying to emails before my inbox reaches quadruple digits. Schedules are drafted. Day-planners are purchased. I stock up on fancy food because I’m also planning on morphing into a master chef and actually cooking instead of just eating nachos for dinner every night. I prepare for my new life as an adult like some people prepare for the apocalypse.
”... It’s like I think that adulthood is something that can be earned like a trophy in one monumental burst of effort and then admired and coveted for the rest of one’s life.
“What usually ends up happening is that I completely wear myself out. Thinking that I’ve earned it, I give myself permission to slack off for a while and recover. Since I’ve exceeded my capacity for responsibility in such a dramatic fashion, I end up needing to take more recovery time than usual. This is when the guilt-spiral starts.”
HERE’S TO STEPPING IN BEFORE THE GUILT-SPIRAL STARTS!!! I went running ONCE last week and started feeling shitty about it (easy enough in addition to all the fun menstrual hormones charging around in my system). I met all of my external requirements (i.e. bought all my books for school, showed up to work on time, turned in assignments, etc), but missed some of my personal marks (i.e. not enough exercise, too much junk food, not enough sleep).
Last night I hit the re-set button; this week will be fine. I will floss my teeth nightly! I will get my exercise in and get ahead in my classes and eat well and sleep and sleep and sleep!
(Why does so much seem to hinge on flossing? It’s almost a symbolic “doing what I’m supposed to” action…) 19 months ago
Sooo good and productive!! Early part of the day: bought supplies and finished up some projects from the sewing pile (buttons on the vest, thread for mending, blanket stitching on the torn canvas bag), followed by dinner with a friend who’s moving out of town. Wrapped up the evening by joining in on a planning meeting for a native plant organization I’ve volunteered with in the past. 20 months ago
I was offered an additional job through school—nothing big, but I’ll get paid to sit in the Science Learning Center doing my homework and occasionally signing other students in and out with their tutors. I had been worried about time-management, but this would basically PAY me to commit to a study schedule. Well… huh! 20 months ago
I keep setting the alarm earlier and earlier, and it’s helping shift my sleep schedule toward where it otterbee. Plan for tomorrow is as follows:
UP AND ATOM!
Paperwerks! (one of my classes was canceled due to low enrollment, I have things to follow up on with the new job, and I have to get my transcripts in to my scholarship committee… bleh!)
Saturday there is STARGAZING with the hobbyist astronomy association. There is also our city’s Pride festival all weekend… might be volunteering Saturday morning. Candle at both ends a little, eh? 20 months ago
WOO-HOO!!! I landed a second job—I’ll be working as a mentor for at-risk youth. The woman who hired me was very excited to find someone with the right experience and qualifications (and will be trying to get my pay-grade increased ASAP); when I was a community gardener through the domestic Peace Corps, I was also serving as a job coach/educator/peer mentor for adjudicated & at-risk youth. I miss the work, and I’m super-psyched to get back at it—not to mention the good things that could come from an additional paycheck… !!!!! 20 months ago
+ back to running regularly
+ eating good stuff: cutting down on caffeine—down from coffee all throughout the day to a cup of matcha tea in the morning; AM smoothies: who knew frozen spinach could be so good?... especially in the midst of frozen blueberries, banana, sunflower seed butter, almond milk… sometimes bonus ingredients like protein powder or maca root—can conveniently pour into my fancy new thermos for staving off hunger throughout the day; PM salads; multivitamin + other supplements (iron, calc+mag, veg enzymes) at least most days. Worth noting: my stomach problems are dissipating and my energy levels are really good
+ aggressive gratitude—have been taking on cleaning projects around the house that I’m typically inclined to think of as “not my job”
+ sewing! with a friend!
+ nightly hygiene routine definitely becoming a habit
Things that need more work:
- organizing stuff: have made some headway, but need to light a fire under my butt on this one
- daily meditation: haven’t done at all
- AM/PM yoga: I’m doing yoga more often than I had been, but not very concentrated… and mostly after running
- up and atom: have been enjoying sleeeeeeeping and need to start getting my sleep cycles in line with my upcoming school schedule 20 months ago
- up early (6-7), AM yoga (20 mins), short run (20-30 mins), lower body/upper body strength training
- brekkies & multivitameatavegamins
- meditate (mad metta!)
- organize & purge stuff from the move
- ditto for closet & room… especially BOOKS!
- git ready fer school (books, notebooks, binders, etc)
- CAR CAR CAR: rust control patrol (Honda-rot :P); check oil every other fill up & keep tidy (NOT A LOCKER ON WHEELS)
- drawring & writering & paintering
- looooong bike rides
- awesome nutrition (lots of veggies)
- fun thing every day
- cross off to-dos
- reeeeead offline
Hit the hay:
- night time routine (brush, floss, mouthwash; wash face, salt/sugar scrub, clay mask, toner, moisturizer), PM yoga & reading
What else? 20 months ago