So its the last day of September, and i finally talked to my mother.It didnt happen like i thought it would but it did happen .On Thursday i sent my younger sister message on facebook basically giving her my number an said when she talked o her to pass it along and if my mother wanted it she could call me…. well long story short that didnt happen so today sunday my uncle (my mothers brother)made sme calls to find me and ended up calling my husbands work phone my husband called me gave me the number I called him and he took my number and gave me my mothers number I wasnt sure what to do I didnt know what to say I didnt know if I should call her or wait for her to call me after an hour I decided to just suck it up and call we talked for a while it was nice but I could help but feel like I heard this before she said she would call me tomorrow but never would. I made my peace with it I called her she did say sorry to me and said she was proud of me for passing my GED test and going to school again I feel better kowing that I forgave but I wont forget how I was treated. Im just going to take it one day at a time 7 months ago

I havnt seen my mother in over a year. I last spoke to her December 26 2011, not because I dont want to but because she doesnt seem to have much to say to me. So I kinda left it at that. It just upsets me that she only calls when she wants to share her issues or something good she accomplished then she will say well what have u been up to? but when I start to say anything she kinda rushes me off the phone then I dont hear from her for months, its really odd I know you only get one mom and some people dont have thier moms at all but my mom I dont know it just seems as if she doesnt want much to do with me. She always says im the only one out of her 3 children to never cause her a day of grief I was always a good child very quiet respectful never asked for anything and I took care of home while she worked because im the oldest, my two younger sisters they are another story this is what she tells me but to call my mom when im sad or hurtig or needing to vent I dont have that I would like to but I dont see it I just really want her to know im well my children are well and happy and inspite of all i have been through im getting on my feet and moving past the hurt I felt growing up she doesnt know where I live or a phone number for me no one does I have always kept to myself I guess i just cut everyone off this past year even more I do have a good reason. I guess its just time for me to face them. 9 months ago