I want to end my life

im always tired nowadays.i can hardly stay awake when i should be the most energized.maybe its just a coping mechanism for my mind,it just shuts down instead of dealing with the pain.just more of my life becoming lost i guess. im waiting, hoping for that turning point where i wont have to keep feeling this way where nothing matters especially me but the more i wait the more i pain,the more i suffer.

It’s the stuff of fortunes and desires.
It’s not that I’ve failed life or life has failed me.
I’m just tired, and prehapse alone.
I’ve screamed alone let me out, let me off.
I’m tired of the bull-shit the lies, the broken promise the thorn contract.
I sick and tired of the hate the biggots who were are uniform and claim to protect yet behind close doors despise and hate everyone of us.
I was brought into their confidence and was sickened by their attitude. to realize these are not my friends.
I’m tired, I want out.
Final solution

i’m alone and desperate to end my life…my father left us before i born and when the age of 3 my mother also left us…and now im leaving w/ my relatives..but i dont fell that they care for me at all..i leave my life w/ no 1 cares for me, no 1 listen when i have a problem, and no 1 i can lean on when im in pain..but despite all that i just endure all the suffrngs and the daily pain that i been through but still i fell so alone and lost..i dont know how to leave my life. i just leave my life in order to survive…

i tryed 2 live agian like its has 2 b but it won’t help enymore i am sick of it i already slamed 2cars this year and last year i hat damme fucking luck and survived but i am already safing enoff monny 2 buy a new car thats going 2 b more faster so i can make the end game now and reash it cus i don’t wanne live in pain enymore i lost almost evyrthing since i am 7years old evrything is fuckt up i don’t wanne live enymore

i only gotha work 17more day den i buy my new car and slame it agian in the wall or somthing this time it will work cus this new mercedes will b mutch faster and my end game will work

wat is da point of carring on????

Do any of you know what the purpose of life is? cmon kids forget about others perspectives and this ‘stress’ being put on you. None of you realize what you are and who your effecting with your own actions. Suicide is the ultimate failure, which is the end to your purpose, which is to succeed no matter what that might entail you too. Dont be rash, forgot others feelings and intent. Your progress is all that matters. Dont let the others influence your actions, especially one that will stop anything that may have come for you. Suicide is bullshit, this has nothing to do with the almighty whatsoever, cause as far as any of us knows there isnt one or there could be. We’ll never know, but what you do know is that your alive and its one gift that will only be around for as long as you let it. Your life and others are all intertwined in the end, we all die..why cut it short while there may be something you can do to change others and make yourself happy while your at it; instead of completely giving up. Fuck that, everyone goes through the stress, the pain, death, mental anxiety but then there are some who dont. Realize your the one becoming stronger through experience and that with it you’ll be able to teach and make others more enduring as well. Hope this helped, i wouldnt say anything unless ive dealt with much of the same myself. Except the rape, i hope your doing better now by the way.

Peace

heh if ur reading this then ur curious…iv been down so much and took it out on myself…alot…but why do we do it to ourselves…we shouldnt punish ourselves for being different…screw wut society thinks and wut other people think…its hard for me to keep friends due to the way i am…why cant we turn our pain toward society and punish them….why kill ur self….if ur goin to kill ur self at least take a few with you…i hav so much to talk aboutbut i cant cuz the wrong people will see…rise up and be known..u r a person and we can do some damage to the society that casted us aside.

M REALLY FRUSTRATE IN MY LIFE.I HAD SUICIDE 2 YRS BACK WAS BEEN ADMITTIED TO HOSPITAL FOR 2 MONTHS….. NOW AGAIN SAME PROBLEMS CAMED TOWARDS ME. SO AGAIN I WASNT TO COMIT AND WIL DEFINATELY DO SO IN THIS MONTH ITSELF.
I KNOW SUICIDE IS NOT THE BEST ANS FOR ALL PROBLEMS BUT CANT HELP…
I WAS AN FLIRT PERSON IN MY LIFE WITH LOTS OF FRNDZ AND SPECIALLY GIRL FRNDZ…..
BUT NOW M ALMOST ALONE BCZ OF SOME SPECIAL REASON….....
IS ANY THING MAKE ME FAR FROM EVERYONE.
I HAD DECIDED TO TAKE SANYAS BUT NO REPLY FROM ANYONE,,,,,,
I LOVE SRI RAVI SHANKAR A LOT (ART OF LIVING) I DEICED TO SPEND MY WHOLE LIFE IN HIS ASHRAM BUT NO REPLY FROM THERE TO. SO LAST OPTION SUICIDE.
THANKS TO ALL WHO CAMED IN MY LIFE….
FEW WORDS TO ALL READING THIS…...
LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL BUT EVERY BEAUTIFUL THING IS NOT LIFE…......

REGARDSVICKY SHARMA (MUMBAI)
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I believe that some people are dealt a shitty hand of cards, and yes, there are many people who don’t understand and never will. No matter what the sorrow or pain, it is our job to take care of us, regardless of whether or not someone else cares about us. I used to believe that any focus of energy on myself was a waste of that energy, but that was because of everyone else in my life wasn’t caring about me and I felt that punishment was due, just because. But just because no one else cares, does not mean we deserve this extra punishment, life is hard enough. Yes, when the walls close in, and it is impossible to breath, let alone function, but if your world shrinks in on you, then you have to change your thinking, and think small, not big. Tackle one thing at a time. If getting out of bed is difficult, then make yourself a coffee. Then tomorrow, add one more task, and so on. Sometimes changing you, and the way you think is the key. If your waiting for someone else to change your life, then in my mind, your waiting for the next disaster. I have never relied on anyone, never could, never had that option. I realize, when I look around, that I am different, that I don’t really fit in, and I cry all the time, but what else can I do? Okay, it is impossible to trust yourself with this thinking, “I hate myself, want it to end”, so don’t, look at your choices, re-visit them, ripe them apart, learn how to do things differently next time. Life is always full of challenges and obstacles, all while surrounded by such negativity. I tell myself that everyday “I cope with life the best I can” and having no expectations about everyone else, but try hard to keep my own promises. I have been depressed ever since I could remember. As an adult (29 and still learning) I still suffer depression on a regular basis. Most of my teenage memories are of crying, punishing myself, excepting blame when it was not mine to take, swallowing 15 tylenol with codine daily to keep my head quiet (this was back when you could buy them off the shelf). Most of my traumatic experiences occurred during the High School years, to those in High School, my heart goes out. People can be and are very cruel, multiply that by a large group of stressed out hormone imbalanced confused teens fighting to be the next in the spotlight. I have promised myself, when there is a reunion, I will have my moment in the spot light, and go only to take the emotions from me and leave them with those who resulted in my misfortune. Then they can spend the rest of lives living with the guilt, while I have long moved on. This is justice, and yes we all need and deserve it.

To the girl who is 13 and her mom hates her because she put her step dad in jail for rape. I hated my Mother for years and years. She treated my boyfriend (in High School) better then me. And when we broke up, she begged me to try again and go back. I told her over and over again that he was abusive and he hit me in the face (this was the least to worry about), but she told me not to tell her, she didn’t want to know, but continued to ask me to go back. I realized that she did not care enough about me, that she was being selfish and she would not even let me talk to her about it, she wanted me to forget and forgive the abuse. It was then that I decided that I could not allow her to be my Mother anymore. Yes, she is family, but not “Mom” by the description of what a Mother SHOULD be. So I let go…cried….and…cried…but needed to be able to out loud and to myself say these words “I cannot care what she thinks, I do not care what she says, her words are hurtful and I will not let her affect me anymore, because my life depends on this fact”. This took me over 5 years to accomplish, because I would not cut her from my life, or I would have to say goodbye to everyone else. Really not fair, that she makes herself this important by clinging to certain family, but also not the fault of my sister and father. Just bad choosing on my fathers part, lol. A part of me still hates her, but we are communicating better then before. And I am ready to drop the bomb on her, when she asks me again why we don’t have a good relationship, to which I say “when you are ready to understand why I suffered so much, then I will be ready to share a heart to heart. But I have told her that she will never be ready (as every attempt was stopped by her anyway) and that this is as comfortable as I would like to be with her. Funny, she has accepted my terms in order to keep me in her life You need to not let her affect you, very very hard, but look to friends or make new friends, join a club or school program, there are far more opportunities at your age. And the sooner you make friends who treat you well, the easier you make every next step in your life. Even if you can’t talk to them, they should be able to help you create new good memories that you can hold onto and remind yourself that there is more to life.

i want to end my life. but idk if i should or not? im only 13 and hate my life b/c my step dad raped me. my mom hates meh for puttin him in jail. and my lifes like over idk wut 2 do